[ It helps. Holding his hand. Being this close to him. The familiar scent, the sound of his laughter. It's a shock to his senses, intricately entwined with his quirk. To his past. After his mother was taken, it was years before Endeavor let any of his siblings near him for more than a meal that was more punishment to them. He was aware of it. The role he played in their punishment too. It wasn't until years later, after Natsou left for college and Fuyumi became a teacher that she decided to stay at that house. She made more of an effort to welcome him, but by then the damage was done, and he was no longer receptive to her endeavors. He accepted them still, but aware that her presence still was a punishment she accepted for him and he couldn't feel welcomed knowing his part in her punishment just like his part in his mother's.
It was his goal then to escape Endeavor's thumb as soon as possible in order to free her. He lived for that. Enduring the days until he could leave and so could Fuyumi just like Natsou. They were better off without him in their lives. A sentiment he's known for years. One he accepted. So, to have someone that didn't need to endure punishment for his sake... to know that he wasn't a burden to them...
It's overwhelming.
Almost incomprehensible. If he hadn't spent the last few months in the dorms away from that place, he wouldn't have a chance of comprehending it. But he has, and in that time, he's learned so much from his classmates. His friends. Without them, he wouldn't understand half of what Allen is offering him. Wouldn't be able to accept it. But he does, and he stays by his side, accepting the token of-- what... is this?
Leaning against him, accepting the embrace, Shouto lets his thoughts prod that question for the first time, and the more he thinks about it, the more control he gains until he can safely let go of his hand. ]
Thank you... for the anchor.
[ He slowly pulls back from the embrace. At least this time, there's no ice or boiling water. ]
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It was his goal then to escape Endeavor's thumb as soon as possible in order to free her. He lived for that. Enduring the days until he could leave and so could Fuyumi just like Natsou. They were better off without him in their lives. A sentiment he's known for years. One he accepted. So, to have someone that didn't need to endure punishment for his sake... to know that he wasn't a burden to them...
It's overwhelming.
Almost incomprehensible. If he hadn't spent the last few months in the dorms away from that place, he wouldn't have a chance of comprehending it. But he has, and in that time, he's learned so much from his classmates. His friends. Without them, he wouldn't understand half of what Allen is offering him. Wouldn't be able to accept it. But he does, and he stays by his side, accepting the token of-- what... is this?
Leaning against him, accepting the embrace, Shouto lets his thoughts prod that question for the first time, and the more he thinks about it, the more control he gains until he can safely let go of his hand. ]
Thank you... for the anchor.
[ He slowly pulls back from the embrace. At least this time, there's no ice or boiling water. ]