( open ) I can't control withering wonders

[jedies]

Who: Alucard, Ahiru and Obi-Wan + You
What: Memshare prompts from the Test Drive
When: September!
Where: Around ish!

( prompts will be in the comments below. if you have a preference, please reach out to me @ timmtams or pm this journal! )

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[ezra_of_lothal]

[And he had and does follow that much. It's just-

He presses his lips together.]

I don't-

[He rubs a hand over the bridge of his nose.]

This is tough to talk about because..words are hard, I guess. And people are complicated. Names are tricky. Time and change and choices.

I used the name Vader in this conversation because Anakin hasn't made the same sort of choices here. In that sense, Anakin isn't that person. I hope that keeps being true.

But I don't, actually, ever forget that, in another sense, they're one and the same.

[jedies]

[ softly. ]

Yes . . . and no.

[ezra_of_lothal]

[Well. He did just say words are hard and people are complicated.]

Which you must mean differently from the distinction I just made.

I'm listening.

[jedies]

[ obi-wan shakes his head slowly. the last thing vader told him . . . obi-wan didn't feel it was right to share. perhaps with anakin, someday. ]

I'm afraid that's all I can say for now.

[ezra_of_lothal]

[Ezra hesitates, mouth open for a long moment, and then says, slow and careful-]

I...heard some things he said to Ahsoka, when they finally met again. On Malachor.

It, um. Took me a long time to make much sense of the parts I did hear.

[jedies]

[ ah. ]

It must have been difficult for her.

[ezra_of_lothal]

[He huffs out an unhappy sound.]

Yes. She...didn't want to leave him. Force pushed me out of the Sith temple while it came down around them.

[Another, softer, amazed huff.]

Which...is not the end of that story, thankfully. I just realized, from her perspective, she protected me against two Sith Lords in the space of a couple of hours. And talked me through one of the hardest decisions of my life.

[jedies]

[ oh, ahsoka. that must have broken her heart. ]

She always did face things head on.

[ezra_of_lothal]

She's good at it. But also the spy stuff.

[He clears his throat.]

I guess my point is...I know it's complicated. And I care about all of you.

[jedies]

[ kindly. ]

Thank you, Ezra. I do not doubt that. It's simply . . . too personal for now.

[ezra_of_lothal]

[He nods.]

Then we don't have to talk about it anymore.

[jedies]

Mm. I think it's fine to leave it there.