Shen Yuan gives his friend a confused look, that gradually softens as Jin Guangyao speaks. "Did I upset you, speaking about such things? I'm sorry, I didn't mean to."
He intends to say more, to talk about how so many in Trench are really obviously confused and depressed and if he can help them by showing that death isn't the escape they think it might be then he wants to -- but instead his vision twists and --
the lights are too bright, glaring fluorescent instead of soft and filtered sunlight, and he is so thirsty. His stomach cramps and tears at his throat, and he bites back tears that he tells himself are angry, he's furious with that hack Airplane for writing such a shitty ending to the story, not -- he's not afraid --
Shen Yuan blinks. He very carefully sets down his croissant. He picks up his teacup. He sips the tea. He sips instead of gulping, and tells himself everything is fine.
"I didn't mean to upset anyone," he says calmly and evenly. "It just seemed a prudent moment to share my own experiences, in order to broaden everyone's perspective."
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He intends to say more, to talk about how so many in Trench are really obviously confused and depressed and if he can help them by showing that death isn't the escape they think it might be then he wants to -- but instead his vision twists and --
the lights are too bright, glaring fluorescent instead of soft and filtered sunlight, and he is so thirsty. His stomach cramps and tears at his throat, and he bites back tears that he tells himself are angry, he's furious with that hack Airplane for writing such a shitty ending to the story, not -- he's not afraid --
Shen Yuan blinks. He very carefully sets down his croissant. He picks up his teacup. He sips the tea. He sips instead of gulping, and tells himself everything is fine.
"I didn't mean to upset anyone," he says calmly and evenly. "It just seemed a prudent moment to share my own experiences, in order to broaden everyone's perspective."