umbraportation: (and you know I will be here)
Nico di Angelo ([personal profile] umbraportation) wrote in [community profile] deercountry 2022-12-16 07:42 pm (UTC)

[ Even if someone viewing the memory has helped him be calmer, Nico is still fidgety, but this appears to be a normal thing for him. He simply twists the silver skull ring on his finger the entire time he's talking and through any quiet.

Well, no one said that love never hurt. It can be the most painful thing.

Talking about this is... it isn't easy at all. But it gets easier each time he talks about it. Lightens a weight he carried for years and perhaps bring him one step closer to near complete control over his powers. ]


Yeah, it did. On all accounts. [ A soft sigh. ] I had so many feelings about my sister's death, all of them conflicting others.

[ That is... another story that still needs more work. ]

Anyway, next time I saw Percy, he had lost most of his memories of everything because a goddess was stirring things up for something big. The one thing he really remembered was Annabeth. I didn't tell him anything, then, not about me or his past. The situation was delicate, and I knew a goddess was at work. You don't mess with that sort of thing.

Percy went off on his quest, and I went to what's probably the most horrible place in Greco-Roman history to try to help things. Ended up captured by monsters, stuck in a jar in a death trance for days, and wasn't sure anyone was coming. [ Yes, death trance is as horrible as it sounds. ] Of course, he's the one who shows up to get me out only to fall into the same pit I'd gotten out of because he wasn't going to let go of Annabeth. [ The pit is another story for another time, too. ]

He looks me in the eye and in the same way I'd asked him to protect Bianca, he makes me swear to get everyone else to a place that's equally just as dangerous. Without knowing that what he's getting into is something I just walked through with perfect clarity just because of who I am, and I did it alone. [ There was a lot of hurt and jealousy over that whole thing. ] And then, Cupid.

I'd never told anyone about myself, though dad would point it out every so often. [ Back when their relationship was worse. ] It was my most closely guarded secret, and one that I couldn't let go of. I hated it, being pressured into doing that in front of someone I hardly knew. [ The blond demigod. ] Jason, he kept bringing up. I know he was trying to help, telling me that if other people knew, they'd back me up and unleash the fury of the gods on anyone who gave me trouble, but everything felt so raw and exposed then. Told him I was over Percy, but I wasn't - not just yet.

[ There's only a little bit more, but some of them touch on a wound that hasn't healed yet. ]

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