Kageyama Shigeo (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
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deercountry2022-12-09 07:48 am
centile) wrote in deercountry2022-12-09 07:48 am
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Who: Mob, Viktor and others
What: december log catchall for my characters
When: december and potentially beyond
Where: around the trench
Content Warnings: in thread headers
What: december log catchall for my characters
When: december and potentially beyond
Where: around the trench
Content Warnings: in thread headers
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god of love, huh. asshole.
frankly viktor is impressed when he starts to speak. vulnerability, openness, they aren't matters he's ever found remotely easy himself. he doubts nico does either, which makes it more impressive he's willing to try if so.
and it's a lot. viktor nods at points, lips thin in others.]
And that hurt, no doubt. [obviously.] A useless thing to say, but my condolences for your sister.
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Well, no one said that love never hurt. It can be the most painful thing.
Talking about this is... it isn't easy at all. But it gets easier each time he talks about it. Lightens a weight he carried for years and perhaps bring him one step closer to near complete control over his powers. ]
Yeah, it did. On all accounts. [ A soft sigh. ] I had so many feelings about my sister's death, all of them conflicting others.
[ That is... another story that still needs more work. ]
Anyway, next time I saw Percy, he had lost most of his memories of everything because a goddess was stirring things up for something big. The one thing he really remembered was Annabeth. I didn't tell him anything, then, not about me or his past. The situation was delicate, and I knew a goddess was at work. You don't mess with that sort of thing.
Percy went off on his quest, and I went to what's probably the most horrible place in Greco-Roman history to try to help things. Ended up captured by monsters, stuck in a jar in a death trance for days, and wasn't sure anyone was coming. [ Yes, death trance is as horrible as it sounds. ] Of course, he's the one who shows up to get me out only to fall into the same pit I'd gotten out of because he wasn't going to let go of Annabeth. [ The pit is another story for another time, too. ]
He looks me in the eye and in the same way I'd asked him to protect Bianca, he makes me swear to get everyone else to a place that's equally just as dangerous. Without knowing that what he's getting into is something I just walked through with perfect clarity just because of who I am, and I did it alone. [ There was a lot of hurt and jealousy over that whole thing. ] And then, Cupid.
I'd never told anyone about myself, though dad would point it out every so often. [ Back when their relationship was worse. ] It was my most closely guarded secret, and one that I couldn't let go of. I hated it, being pressured into doing that in front of someone I hardly knew. [ The blond demigod. ] Jason, he kept bringing up. I know he was trying to help, telling me that if other people knew, they'd back me up and unleash the fury of the gods on anyone who gave me trouble, but everything felt so raw and exposed then. Told him I was over Percy, but I wasn't - not just yet.
[ There's only a little bit more, but some of them touch on a wound that hasn't healed yet. ]
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talk about a complicated world. frankly it always annoys him when he hears of worlds like this where kids and teens are shouldering the weight of the world. as if it isn't hard enough, as though these gods couldn't maybe tone it down. he resists the urge to sigh.]
Well-meaning but invasive. [about jason's attempts.] I can't say I totally understand it. My world was rather unconcerned with sexuality, it saved it's bigotry for other matters. [maybe in those other matters he could understand pretty well though.]
What happened with this Percy in the end?
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[ Or all three at the same time. He'd gone into it completely unprepared unlike the animals who would hibernate for the winter. Only the seeds keeping him from slipping fully into his father's world. ]
Like a metal sponge being rubbed on a salted wound. [ It hurt like that. ] Yeah, my world has plenty of other ways it's horrible and that's just one of them.
[ The bigotry still exists, just not as badly as it once was. ]
He and Annabeth managed to get out of the pit, she thanked me for being the reason they had help down there. We split off to do separate tasks, and I stupidly pushed myself to the limits of what I could physically handle. That's when Will inserted himself into my life, telling me off for using my powers when I'd nearly become one with the shadows. I could see it, that way people would pull back from me or were afraid of me. There wasn't any of that with Will.
[ There's the faintest of smiles on his face now. ]
He wanted me to stick around, not just camp, but with him. That was the moment I knew I was really over Percy, and I was able to tell him that. To be able to say it without being forced or pressured into it. Now Percy's off to college with his girlfriend, and I've got a boyfriend who can light up the darkness when I feel like I'm drowning in it.
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Jason became the first demigod friend I had, we saw each other whenever he was at camp. And then... I felt him die.
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ok, tuning down the Nerd. focusing on the rest.
nico mentioned will when they first met, perhaps since, and once again there's respect for the kid. positivity like that isn't exactly viktor's forte, if anything it reminds him a little of jayce, who could put things in a far kinder light. useful to have someone like that when you're prone to melancholy, and probably not for the first time viktor feels nico is a rather relatable young man.
of course things don't stay nice, because why would teens have nice things.]
... were you able to confirm his death? [a bit resigned, he's not holding out hope there.]