Hey! No! This isn't about him at all! It's about you, Shen Yuan, yooou!

The dark expression falters, flickering a little as He Xuan's brows draw in and his teeth catch unknowingly at his lip. Even after all this time he doesn't love to think about his death, though he's spent plenty of dark nights going over it as he stubbornly catalogued each and every sin against him. That stopped with Shi Wudu's death, though.

"It's sort of a long story," he hedges gruffly. "I just meant — you shouldn't blame yourself like that."