ppl do it for different reasons i wasnt closed off but i didnt have a lot of friends when i got older i didnt try to i thought everyone looked down on me anyway so why bother
i think that fear stays with you screwing up again i had that even when i came here i was angry for a long time bc of stuff that happened and i called a fight between miyagido and eagle fang when my dad showed up it was stupid. i thought he was here to make fun of miyagido bc of history between us but me and the guy i was fighting broke out into a real fight
i did it bc i feel weak here i should have de-escalated the fight but i didnt i tried quitting miyagido but mr larusso wouldnt have it he helped me give myself a chance
finding something that makes you feel like a better person takes a while i dont know if im really there but im trying
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i wasnt closed off but i didnt have a lot of friends when i got older
i didnt try to
i thought everyone looked down on me anyway so why bother
i think that fear stays with you
screwing up again
i had that even when i came here
i was angry for a long time bc of stuff that happened and i called a fight between miyagido and eagle fang when my dad showed up
it was stupid. i thought he was here to make fun of miyagido bc of history between us
but me and the guy i was fighting broke out into a real fight
i did it bc i feel weak here
i should have de-escalated the fight but i didnt
i tried quitting miyagido but mr larusso wouldnt have it
he helped me give myself a chance
finding something that makes you feel like a better person takes a while
i dont know if im really there but im trying