Giving Jinx permission if the other wanted it is one thing. Sure, she had to think about it for a brief moment, but-- it felt natural. If it's something Jinx wants to try, and if it's something they should try, then of course this much is okay.
But putting what Chizuru wants into the equation? That's so much. Her brain isn't used to considering that part, to a point where it feels like every single thought she tries to turn towards the question is just coming up with an error, like her own mind isn't capable of processing this.
What does she want? Well-- when has Chizuru ever known the answer to that question? ]
I'm-- I-I'm sorry if it's not fun..
[ She stammers that first, because it simply feels easier to first return to. It's so much easier to apologize for a perceived sleight, compared to thinking about what she wants when she has absolutely no clue what that is.
So even though it almost makes her sound like a robot, repeatingly falling into the same things, Chizuru can only think of one answer to that question. Nothing else comes up in her mind. ]
But I just.. want what you want. I want what makes you happy.
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Giving Jinx permission if the other wanted it is one thing. Sure, she had to think about it for a brief moment, but-- it felt natural. If it's something Jinx wants to try, and if it's something they should try, then of course this much is okay.
But putting what Chizuru wants into the equation? That's so much. Her brain isn't used to considering that part, to a point where it feels like every single thought she tries to turn towards the question is just coming up with an error, like her own mind isn't capable of processing this.
What does she want? Well-- when has Chizuru ever known the answer to that question? ]
I'm-- I-I'm sorry if it's not fun..
[ She stammers that first, because it simply feels easier to first return to. It's so much easier to apologize for a perceived sleight, compared to thinking about what she wants when she has absolutely no clue what that is.
So even though it almost makes her sound like a robot, repeatingly falling into the same things, Chizuru can only think of one answer to that question. Nothing else comes up in her mind. ]
But I just.. want what you want. I want what makes you happy.