It's like you said, the lines... blur and you don't know where it begins or ends. You get very good at lying to yourself and others. And you don't know what scares you more. Is it scarier if they see through the lies and hate you for lying, if they see through the lies and don't care, or if they believe your lies and leave you alone. [If lies were scars, he'd be a jigsaw puzzle, a patchwork.] Everything feels terrifying when it comes to that scar.

But... it's... it's better here in ways. Yeah... Shiro and Adam are... are really nice. And for the longest time, I kept waiting for the other shoe to drop. I kept... I kept wondering when were they going to break the facade and get made, or angry.

But... they haven't. There is no dropping shoe. There is no lie.

I'm not used to not being lied to.