"So is Rue. On the spectrum, I mean. It explains part of why I was so comfy with you, but the rest you can thank you, yourself, and you for." Lexi said with feeling. Maybe the similarity between Luz and Rue made Lexi comfortable at first, but each girl was their own, very different selves. And Lexi knew better than to try and draw more comparisons between them.
"...but. You can talk to me about anything. Okay," Lexi asked, hoping that unlike Rue, Luz would be willing to confide in her, to trust her fully with Luz's own self, not with Rue's own partial self. Partial at best.
"Okay...big circle...control...practice...all of those are doable. Or at least they should be. But I really, really hope that I won't have to use them any time in the near future. Or, you know. Ever." But Lexi knew, she knew that the time would eventually come when she'd have to. She could try to put it off as long as she liked, but there was no getting around it.
Lexi blushed crimson. "Oh, uh. There was this guy? I kind of got a threat-y vibe from him, so I warped his reality. Sent him right to East Midland High." And she shouldn't be so proud of that, but she is. No one can survive East Midland High with their sanity intact, it was her go-to when she thought about sending others different places.
And Lexi leaned against Luz gently. "...really? It was?" Because Lexi herself can hardly believe it. She keeps flashing back to that time and all she can remember is blind panic with a side of sarcasm.
But Lexi was trying, she really was. It took her this long to decide to start and try to establish herself beyond Cassie, beyond Rue. She hadn't even known how to start, much as she'd wanted to. But these were Lexi's first steps. Only time would tell how many trails those steps would take her down.
But those were lessons necessary for everyone, Luz shouldn't be upset by them.
"So I should do well, too. Since we have at least some learning styles in common," Lexi asked hopefully.
/hums and hides her hands behind her back
"You have. And I'm trying with the vegetarian thing! It's just that I have so many foods already restricted that I kinda want to enjoy the ones I don't! So don't take my turkey away from me," she said, only half-teasing.
"Well, no, I hadn't. 'Cause I thought I had everything under control. I mean, I hadn't passed the higher prices onto the customers, that's the important thing, right?" Because she was still too convinced that many times she needed to handle things herself. Like a boss. Or a grown-up?
And Lexi curtseyed. "I appreciate that. Even if all squids eat is bug meat."
"Buttercup! That's adorable. I happen to love buttercups, so that's a good one. Gimme a minute to come up with a new one, okay?"
Lexi smiled lovingly. "And you. Are my dulcet darling. That's from somewhere in The Princess Bride, if it's from Humperdink don't give me too much shit."
I keyword according to the artist I was consuming the most of when I fell. ❤
"...but. You can talk to me about anything. Okay," Lexi asked, hoping that unlike Rue, Luz would be willing to confide in her, to trust her fully with Luz's own self, not with Rue's own partial self. Partial at best.
"Okay...big circle...control...practice...all of those are doable. Or at least they should be. But I really, really hope that I won't have to use them any time in the near future. Or, you know. Ever." But Lexi knew, she knew that the time would eventually come when she'd have to. She could try to put it off as long as she liked, but there was no getting around it.
Lexi blushed crimson. "Oh, uh. There was this guy? I kind of got a threat-y vibe from him, so I warped his reality. Sent him right to East Midland High." And she shouldn't be so proud of that, but she is. No one can survive East Midland High with their sanity intact, it was her go-to when she thought about sending others different places.
And Lexi leaned against Luz gently. "...really? It was?" Because Lexi herself can hardly believe it. She keeps flashing back to that time and all she can remember is blind panic with a side of sarcasm.
But Lexi was trying, she really was. It took her this long to decide to start and try to establish herself beyond Cassie, beyond Rue. She hadn't even known how to start, much as she'd wanted to. But these were Lexi's first steps. Only time would tell how many trails those steps would take her down.
But those were lessons necessary for everyone, Luz shouldn't be upset by them.
"So I should do well, too. Since we have at least some learning styles in common," Lexi asked hopefully.
/hums and hides her hands behind her back
"You have. And I'm trying with the vegetarian thing! It's just that I have so many foods already restricted that I kinda want to enjoy the ones I don't! So don't take my turkey away from me," she said, only half-teasing.
"Well, no, I hadn't. 'Cause I thought I had everything under control. I mean, I hadn't passed the higher prices onto the customers, that's the important thing, right?" Because she was still too convinced that many times she needed to handle things herself. Like a boss. Or a grown-up?
And Lexi curtseyed. "I appreciate that. Even if all squids eat is bug meat."
"Buttercup! That's adorable. I happen to love buttercups, so that's a good one. Gimme a minute to come up with a new one, okay?"
Lexi smiled lovingly. "And you. Are my dulcet darling. That's from somewhere in The Princess Bride, if it's from Humperdink don't give me too much shit."