Lexi wanted to believe the best of Rue, wanted to think that she'd overcome her demons and survive. Lexi and Rue had been best friends since preschool and while Lexi felt Rue growing apart and away, it had been hard to accept. So she third-wheeled her way around Rue and Jules and tried to tell herself that Rue still saw Lexi as her best friend.
"...I know. I know she's not well. She hasn't been for a very long time, even before her dad died. And for the longest time, I made excuses for it, but. I can't anymore. Or at least I know I shouldn't. We all have...damage," Lexi said softly.
It was impossible to be more aesthetically pleasing than Cassie. Blonde hair, blue eyes, perfect figure. Honestly, Lexi had no idea where Cassie had come by those features since both of their parents were dark eyed brunettes. And so were their grandparents on both sides. She figured that maybe there was something to genetics, but she didn't know where they came from.
"I want to stay here, too. It's. Easier. To be me here. And the people here like me. For who I really am and after, I don't know. A long time trying to be likeable when it turns out all I needed was another world to find people who liked me. Weird, huh?" Lexi asked with a small, self-deprecating chuckle.
"Ohhh! See, I don't think I've seen that episode. Of course the one where William Shatner sees the monster on the plane wing kind of stands out," she said with a grin.
And Lexi's smile turned tender. "I understand. I...I have the same problem. About the words not working right. Even though I want them to. But I understand you, even when the words don't quite work."
When Luz took Lexi's hands, she gave them a firm squeeze in response, an anchor to show that Lexi was there and would fight as fiercely for Luz as Luz had for her. "I'm glad you saw me. Gladder than I can ever say."
And Lexi had to duck in for a kiss at that, how could she not kiss Luz after such a confession?
Lexi didn't regret a thing. It felt like all of the disappointment and regret had built together to be the person who could still open herself up and accept Luz's love.
"Me neither, but I miss clam chowder. And crab cakes. And lobster everything."
And Lexi would never ask that of Luz, she should get to eat whatever she wanted without her girlfriend holding her back from the things she loved.
"I know, but I hate the idea of guinea pigs to begin with. Cruelty-free makeup and hair products, after all."
Melissa Etheridge is too easy and I don't like the Indigo Girls!
"...I know. I know she's not well. She hasn't been for a very long time, even before her dad died. And for the longest time, I made excuses for it, but. I can't anymore. Or at least I know I shouldn't. We all have...damage," Lexi said softly.
It was impossible to be more aesthetically pleasing than Cassie. Blonde hair, blue eyes, perfect figure. Honestly, Lexi had no idea where Cassie had come by those features since both of their parents were dark eyed brunettes. And so were their grandparents on both sides. She figured that maybe there was something to genetics, but she didn't know where they came from.
"I want to stay here, too. It's. Easier. To be me here. And the people here like me. For who I really am and after, I don't know. A long time trying to be likeable when it turns out all I needed was another world to find people who liked me. Weird, huh?" Lexi asked with a small, self-deprecating chuckle.
"Ohhh! See, I don't think I've seen that episode. Of course the one where William Shatner sees the monster on the plane wing kind of stands out," she said with a grin.
And Lexi's smile turned tender. "I understand. I...I have the same problem. About the words not working right. Even though I want them to. But I understand you, even when the words don't quite work."
When Luz took Lexi's hands, she gave them a firm squeeze in response, an anchor to show that Lexi was there and would fight as fiercely for Luz as Luz had for her. "I'm glad you saw me. Gladder than I can ever say."
And Lexi had to duck in for a kiss at that, how could she not kiss Luz after such a confession?
Lexi didn't regret a thing. It felt like all of the disappointment and regret had built together to be the person who could still open herself up and accept Luz's love.
"Me neither, but I miss clam chowder. And crab cakes. And lobster everything."
And Lexi would never ask that of Luz, she should get to eat whatever she wanted without her girlfriend holding her back from the things she loved.
"I know, but I hate the idea of guinea pigs to begin with. Cruelty-free makeup and hair products, after all."
"All right, mon rêve."