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โ MAY. (CATCH ALL); it was the calm before the storm
Who: jinx & YOU
When: all of may
Where: all throughout trench
What: things that will happen with her during this month. some will be open & some will be private.
Warnings: jinx suffers from mental illness. such as the following - schizophrenia, hallucinations, PTSD, & separation anxiety. these may or may not happen in this log. subject of death will be in this log.
BIO, PERMS, & OP-OUT: Here
They're carving my name in the grave, again
The flowers are fresh & their faces wet
My body has died but I'm still alive
Look over your shoulder, I'm back from the dead
Lightin' my candles to draw me in
Seeing all the same things, I'm gone this time
Your words mean nothing, so take 'em back
& meet me here across the plain
The other side of my foreign land
I. TREEHOUSE VISITATION. (open)
II. THE CLINK N' CLANK. (open)
III. OUT ON THE TOWN. (open)
When: all of may
Where: all throughout trench
What: things that will happen with her during this month. some will be open & some will be private.
Warnings: jinx suffers from mental illness. such as the following - schizophrenia, hallucinations, PTSD, & separation anxiety. these may or may not happen in this log. subject of death will be in this log.
BIO, PERMS, & OP-OUT: Here
The flowers are fresh & their faces wet
My body has died but I'm still alive
Look over your shoulder, I'm back from the dead
Lightin' my candles to draw me in
Seeing all the same things, I'm gone this time
Your words mean nothing, so take 'em back
& meet me here across the plain
The other side of my foreign land
II. THE CLINK N' CLANK. (open)
III. OUT ON THE TOWN. (open)
โค JINX'S TREEHOUSE. (CLICK ON THE BELL FOR FAST INBOX TELEPORT)
Ding Dong! ๐
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โค THE CLINK N' CLANK
The Clink n' Clank โ๏ธ๐ ๏ธ
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โค TIMELINE: saturday, may 6th.
being here feels wrong and although it's been said time and time again that death isn't permanent here, this just... isn't right. jinx made a choice that night to end hers and the beast's life to save wrench and... whoever that other was in the woods. and the next thing she knew? she jolted up from the bathtub, gasping and screaming at the hundreds of voices overlapping within her head. she would had knocked herself unconscious if it weren't for her sister barging in and keeping her from severely hurting herself.
the voices had quieted down since then -- nothing but lulled murmurs she can't quite understand even if she wanted to. ... what day was that, anyway? and what day is this? jinx feels she's been in vi's room and gawking at the same surroundings for years (it's only been a day in her room). what does the outside world look like now (she's been outside)? but then jinx also thinks if it even matters. because all she wants to do is just lie here and sleep for possibly centuries. and that can be achievable, right? if she puts her mind to it, sure. )
( but one way or another, she finds herself slipping out of bed -- almost stumbling due to her legs feeling like rubber for whatever reason. probably from not using them enough. the sweet aroma of whatever is cooking in the rookery sends her stomach to sour, but the soft clanking of glass and kitchenware is oddly satisfying to the ears. it brings her back to her love of tinkering in which she is itching to do, but... questioning if she has the strength to.
and she wonders if anyone stopped by her workshop at all or how many messages are waiting for her via omni. ugh. just the thought of going through them and socializing feels exhausting -- something she really isn't looking forward to. with a hand combing through her bangs, the teen forces herself to step into her sister's bathroom to freshen up. she has to face the world eventually, right? what a crazy way of the meaning, here's to the new me. )
i. WILLFUL MACHINE . โ โ around .โ (daytime)
cw: partial nudity
ii. PRUFROCK . โ โ sapphora (ladies only club).โ (nighttime)
cw: underage drinking, smoking, & very light mentioning of self-harm & masochism in the narrative.
ooc: she is dressed in this! no more nakey!
iii. WILDCARD . โ โ wherever you want her to be.โ (whatever time of the day you want)
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(Likely after she's back from the dead sometime)
Prancing her way into the shop, she leaned against the doorframe and gave a little wave when she happened to see Jinx look over at her. 'Yo' was all that look said, right down to the cocky smirk she always wore.
(OOC: Opted for something light, though if you'd like something more serious toss me a line.)
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Hey, Voiceless. Welcome to the Clink n' Clank. Lookin' for anything specific?
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Well, I would never cheat on my lovely little lady in lace.
Hush does not take well to having to share me with anyone else, you see.
But I was wondering what else you make.
Besides weapons.
[And also she was just catching up, but shhh.]
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( she extends an arm out to the area for weapon polishing, cloths, carrying cases, gloves, firecrackers, emergency flares, and holsters. )
But if you want to make your home NOT be snoozetown, I got some decorations that'll spice things up a bit.
( jinx motions over to the little figurines she made: some animals like pigs, cats, rabbits, penguins, monkeys. all of them look in the cutesy side with little dot eyes as if they were caught in silly shenanigans. example: the pig figurine is looking up with a few spots of it covered in mud with a "oh no, you caught me playing in mud!" expression. with the monkey, it's wearing a banana peel as a hat. )
โ Got a few paintings over there, too. The biggest thing I had got sold last month so ya missed that. But I'm workin' on another one for its comeback.
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I do like my frills.
Think you can manage gloves that are just as gaudy as they are useful?
How've you been holding up lately?
[She wasn't going to bring up Chizuru, though she had worries. However, she knew to tread lightly in terms of how Jinx could react at times, so best to keep it all light.]
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I don't have that many orders so you'll be first in line that I'll work on.
( and as for her last question, jinx will purposely let it go without an answer as if she didn't read it. she must had accidentally skimmed over. )
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And then, when Wrench came stumbling up to Peter's doorstep, upset and revealing the death of Jinx, his part in it.... Pieces have been falling into place. She died, and it seems there's some lingering unrest.
One late humid afternoon, he goes to her. It's an odd parallel to his first encounter. This time, he seeks out the treehouse instead of stumbles across it by accident. When he sees the structure, it still elicits strange.... feelings, memories (he stands on the ground staring upwards for a few long moments, the silence broken only by a clipped cluck of his tongue. A yearning stretches in him, and an ache.)
King Paimon gathers himself, not knocked loose and wild like he was the last time he was here. No, he's something much more calm and composed now, making his way up to the door where he stands tall and proud, and ready to greet the human he's so interested by, the one who calls herself monster. He lifts a fist and knocks, twice. )
cw: mild anxiety, panic attacks + hallucinations
out of all the chicks she brought home so far, that one seemed to be the most easiest to satisfy. and if only she can bring her back around tonight, but the other didn't seem like the type that would want this to be a continuous thing between them. jinx can't really blame her though, because who would want to spend the night in a home of someone they barely know beyond their name?
it's hella sketchy and seem sleazy, sure, but the nights has worsen for her so much that her anxiety sky rocket the moment it's nightfall. even when she drowns herself in alcohol and smokes up a chimney, it does nothing for her frantic heart. the bloodstones have been a hit and miss lately too and that is worrying. )
( and she'd hate to bother vi every evening with her scares. her big sister crashes and snuggles with her in bed some nights, but she has a duty to be over at the outpost late at night. so it leaves jinx to wander off to bars to pick up anyone who is willing to be with her throughout the night in exchange for whatever desire the other may have. but it hadn't been all successful. the girl prior to this one almost broke jinx with wanting everything under the sun in a clothing store. but thank goodness she has a business under her belt to get good trade ins. )
( jinx is in her kitchen before paimon arrives; collecting all the dirty dishes from the table to place in the sink. the teen's been fiddling with the handle for the last few seconds -- puzzled as to why there's no running water coming out of its faucet. and at the sixth twist, she can hear an unusual gargling coming within its pipe. but to her surprise, what comes out isn't water but... leaves. some fresh and some dried up. and what's running alongside the plant is thick blood with a sweet scent of berries that doesn't match at all. the two fill the sink over the dishware and jinx can only stand and watch in confusion. )
( hallucination. this has to be a hallucination. jinx shuts her eyes once, in hope maybe all she needs to do is to recenter herself to have it vanish. but when she opens them again, what she sees is still there. her muscle tightens and she attempts to swallow a large lump in her throat -- and without thinking, she quickly reaches for the handle to shut it all off. but... nothing happens. she twists and twists and twists, but the leaves and the blood run steadily with the dishes rising from its nonstop flow. her breathing grows uneven and turns the knob again in desperation. 'please, please, please', she begs in her mind -- for all of this to just stop for one second. )
( but it looks as if her prays are answered, because it's that knock on the door that brings a small gasp out of her; a sharp turn to glance over her shoulder to the door. someone is here? jinx takes a cautious glimpse back to her sink while wetting her lips. there's no leaves, no blood. nothing but running water that's going to overflow if she doesn't turn it off soon. with a quivering breath and shutting off the water, the teen pulls herself together and heads her way to the front door. it might be vi, because she doesn't usually get visitors and she isn't expecting anyone to come by either. )
( except to her yet another surprise when she opens the door, she is face to face with peter. ... wait. no. no, not peter. the way he's standing so strong and large, this isn't at all peter's posture. a glaring contrast, actually. this is...โ )
Uh... hi?
( she didn't call him over, did she? jinx might had been a little tipsy last night, but she could had sworn her omni was out of reach. )
What can I do ya for?
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Leaning over the table with her hands out to be measured, she did a quick bit of typing.]
We should go out sometime again.
Maybe get shitfaced over at Sapphora's. All work and no play?
Makes jack a dull boy.
[...look, they'd been in a creepy hotel once that was eerily like that scene. It had not been a fun time.]
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But then he hears movement on the other side of the door and the demon king tilts his head towards it, spirit perking up. There she is, looking up at him, and his eyes sparkle as he greets her, proud that it's entirely of his own volition and not through Peter โ the way that in the past, he's clawed his way out of his host to speak to Jinx in snippets. No, this time he came here all on his own, something planned-out. He's even dressed the way he likes, in sandals and loose clothing that his skin breathes comfortably in, although the weather is... unfavourable. King Paimon prefers the heat, but he's a creature of dry desert sands and yawning sunsets, not heavy moist humidity. The curls of Peter's hair are a little frazzled, fluffed out, and Paimon dislikes the light coating of sweat that sticks to him in places.
Still, he's thrilled to stand before her, and he speaks proudly, head tilted back and voice assured. Yes, this..... is definitely not Peter. )
Greetings. It is I, King Paimon. I have come to see you.
( It's definitely not creepy for a demon to just come to a person's home! He's looking her over carefully, with his usual intensity, but there's something intentionally concerned to it, a thoughtful frown. )
I have learned that things have been difficult for you. I desired to come check upon you.
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Mm. ( the girl hums a response; eyes squinting to focus. ) โ We can do that. I've been jumpin' between there and Earworm the last few nights. Been going on my own, but it'd be rad to have someone to chat with at the bar.
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Never a bad idea to find a partner in crime eh?
So, what've you been doin lately? Mostly keeping up with the work around here?
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Yep. Just working and tryin' to keep business going. I hadn't been at it for a month so I got a lotta catching up to do.
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but that silly thought process quickly flies by when he expresses his concern and her face falls. the hand that's on the doorknob slips off to become dead weight at her side, and then her back to turn him as she enters further into her home. )
Things been difficult with everyone.
( she points out, tone a little harsh without meaning so. ) โ Didya had a one-on-one pow-wow with Pete?
( jinx halts suddenly to turn around to face him before entering the kitchen -- eyebrow quirking. )
Wait. Can the two of you talk to each other while you're all... ( her hand does a circle motion as a gesturing to himself. )... fused up like that?
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All work and no play will make Jinx a very dull girl, after all, right?
[she waited until the measurements were finished to lean up and grin over at her friend. She figured that she was being clever right there.]
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( so with that being done, she glances over to neo with a smile. )
โ Got any specific color you want your gloves to be? I'm gonna guess either purple or pink.
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The color scheme doesn't work if I don't balance it with a lil white after all.
[Like almost everything in her life, it was all a balancing act in Neo's mind. Make sure everything was in place, nothing imperfect.]
So, what's the most fun curve ball you've had lately?
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Gee, I dunno. Gettin' chased by the hounds was pretty fun when that was going on. Played fetch a lotta times. โ I wonder if the lil' scruffies are still tuckered out from that.
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What'd you have em playing fetch with anyway?
Just a stick, or did you manage some self propelled boomerang or something for them to chase?
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( what a risk seeker. but like she told a few people, what's life without a little danger here and there? )
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One-on-one pow-wow.....? His head tilts to the side, mentally chewing over the words, uncertain what they mean. Is "pow-wow" possibly referring to some sort of weapon...? He does know that Jinx enjoys weapons.
But the girl's next words help affirm what the meaning might be. Ah.... )
We could, but my vessel does not like it. He is... afraid to speak to me. So we do not.
( Paimon hesitates in the doorframe, not following her in. Unlike last time, when he was all feral and strange, breaking in, this time he's more how he's meant to be. And such a thing as himself does not enter a home unless.... invited. Welcomed. For now, he only watches her movements. )
I observed what he said to you. It seems you have been.... feeling alone.
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Y'know, I'm never really lonely. ( jinx then taps the side of her temple with her fingernail, directing to the voices in her head. her arm drops down with a smirk attached. )
What, are ya just gonna stand there and let all the mosquitoes in? C'mon. I'll fetch ya some water if you're thirsty.
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You know what, I'll buy it.
I'm guessing you were a step ahead of them the whole time?
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Then the girl tells him to "C'mon" which he knows by now means "Come" and so he shall. Moving silently forwards, letting the door fall shut behind him, his feet sweep across wooden floorboards, and he stands tall and proud. )
It may be wise to supply my vessel with water, ( he nods, which is not exactly what she's suggesting, butโ! Yes, Peter needs more water in his life. As he moves further inside, Paimon continues to study Jinx as though she is something very interesting. Of course he can't let it go, directly askingโ )
You are never really lonely?
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she peeks over her shoulder to the demon, smiling though. )
Well... ( she starts off, then looking back to the faucet. maybe the rushing water will drown out most of this explanation. ) โ I have voices. They chat with me sometimes. Particularly when I don't want 'em to.
( with the glass now full, she twists off the water to make her way back to him -- drink extending out to him. )
That's what I mean.
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( she shakes her head as she mutters," a step ahead, she says." like she really can't believe she asked such an insane question. )
What about you, huh? You've been givin' me twenty questions and you haven't said a thing about you. How are you doing?
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Slowly, the demon reaches out to take it, fingers wrapping stiff and tight around the glass. He holds it a little awkwardly, extended outwards a bit, making no movements to actually take a drink from it yet. )
Do they.... reveal the future to you? Prophecy?
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Uuuuhh....no? They just... talk shit. Or sometimes warn me of somethin' coming at me or people.
( a beat. )
They're not always right, though. So it's like a gamble listenin' to 'em.
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...Or perhaps it is more like a curse. Either way, it's only further proving to him that Jinx is no ordinary human, and his interest in the girl grows. )
They warn you of things.... but at times, those things are trickery. ( He nods solemnly, sorting it all out. Paimon well-knows trickery, and in fact, he has played the part of whispering voices within human minds, to manipulate them. Other times, to guide them.
Hmm. )
Do they speak to you now? Are they here?
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( the blue-haired girl makes her way to the main living room now, plopping onto the couch while extending her hand to him to sit in a chair or floor if he wishes. )
But I don't always know what they're saying. It's a lotta gargling noises in my head right now. ( hmm, how to explain it? ) โ Y'know when you're out in Willful Machine and there's people all around you and they're chattin' away, but you can't hear their conversations exactly? It's a lot like that. You may can pick up a word or two, but it's mostly soft and in mumbles.
( it's a little odd to sit here and talk about her voices. not many people question her what they're like or know in full details, for that matter. )
If they really want me to know somethin', they'll let me know. Or sometimes they mess with me by getting my attention, but talk all soft on purpose to irritate me.
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A cacophony. ( He gives a tip of his head forwards like a nod, when Jinx describes these "voices". A swell of tongues, meshed together, threads unable to be pulled apart. )
Have they always been with you? Or were they..... given to you?
( If this is a gift, or a curse, either way โ is it something the girl was born with? Or was it placed upon her? ...Forced? )
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( although this is a very strange conversation and she feels a tad bit cramped with this type of subject, maybe it's something she should discuss about more. a handful of people are aware of her voices: ekko, vi, chizuru, sharon, wrench... โ if they are others, then it's probably by merely observing her. if they're smart enough.
but with them, she doesn't speak about it in length. it would be just a quick brush of a sentence then off to the next thing. who knows? maybe her rambling on about them like this will get her to open up more about her mental illness (that she denies still). )
You're really curious about 'em, huh?
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He studies the girl, quietly. )
To hear the purl of Voices within.... It is an importance. You are a conduit for something.
( Paimon tilts his head again, still holding his glass calmly to himself. )
You died in this place, and returned. Did it affect the Voices?
( Make them louder, agitated? Or perhaps quieter? Perhaps there was no effect at all. But the restlessness she'd spoken of with Peter... Paimon wonders. )
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still though, the teen shifts around uncomfortably -- tucking her legs underneath her as she rearranges her seating. )
They were... upset when I came back. Things were so quiet and dark. It was weird, but... kinda peaceful? But when I woke up, they were screaming so much. Some were angry, confused, just talkin' over themselves. It was a real headache.
( she breaks to move her bangs out of her eyes to see him clearly. )
โ They're better now, though.
this is so fucking late, zero worries if you want to drop it!!
....There's something to it that is familiar. In different ways, layered ones. His head slowly tilts to one side again, thoughtful and liquid-smooth. ]
That must be..... very difficult. That torment. ....I have known it, in humans. I have.... seen them feel it. Be broken apart by it.
[ Peter's uncle..... ]
...What helps them find relief? What makes them better? Is it something you do for them?
[ He has a thought. There are things that an entity like Paimon is meant to provide for humans. Perhaps he can help Jinx in that way, as well. ]
but i like peter and his demon friend. ):
Sheesh, I dunno. They get hard to reason with. They give me advice or their opinions but they're not always right. I try to ignore 'em most of the time.
They like u too, Jinx ๐
The demon's quiet again for a few long moments, thoughtful, before he speaks back up. ]
I can... do things. Things to help. I help the human Robby, and my witch, with their bad dreams.
I can... alter things.
[ It may sound... ominous, and it can be (certainly the demon king Paimon can mentally torment and unravel, inflict psychological terror....) but what he can do is also of use. Meant to assist, to soothe, to help. ]
I can make bad things go away. Good things show.
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( because how else can one make bad things go away besides maybe using the bloodstones? it's what she's been using to calm herself, but the nightmares are a completely different story. )