Mostly Closed Catch-all for November

[azurestar]

Who: Lance (azurestar) and CR
What: Catch-all for November, after this
When: All of November
Where: Prufrock, Cellar Door, Crenshaw

Content Warnings: discussion of death, murder, trauma/ptsd, psychosis, past torture

( ooc: this is a catchall for Lance this November after his conflict with Reaper and then Maul, though I am trying to keep my new threads this month limited in number, if you have CR with Lance already you are welcome to come plot something with me here or on plurk at spypigeon and we can start something here in this log or I may ask to wait till next month while I get his inbox more caught up and under control if I've already got too much going on, either way I'm happy to plot always! )

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[azurestar]

[Lance tears off a piece of the bandage to clean off the still leaking blood. His jaw visibly clenches and he lights his other hand up with heat, wincing as he does, to see if that'll do anything when he places it on the wound. Of course it doesn't because he's resistant to his own powers and to all heat, cauterizing just isn't an option anymore.

As he does this, he's listening to Reaper talk about powers gotten by Moira… which has him pausing and tensing.] …She gave you yours.

[It's barely a question and his voice is even more guarded than it has been as he says it. More things they have in common, the opposite of what he wants. Everything he's afraid of. However, at the same time… it makes Reaper possibly the only person here right now who can really help him understand his own. Something he is not going to voice… or even pursue. It would have to be extremely dire if he ever did that. A voice in his ear laughs that it's long past that point.

He shakes his head free of that voice. Or tries… they never leave him completely, they fade in and out but have been increasing as his corruption has increased. Then he lets out a 'psh' sound at all the rest of what Reaper says, choosing to ignore what feels to him like patronizing bullshit about the lack of need for threats. It makes him feel better being around him, and he needs every little bit of security he can scrabble together.]

Well there's one thing we agree on. [He grumbles with a hash snarl to the edge of his tone. Then looks at Reaper like he just suggested they hug… even though he's really struggling with this bandage because everything hurts.] What? No! The hell makes you think I want your presence closer to me? You just said it was torture.

[no_reload]

[Reaper shrugged his shoulders lightly to Lance's not-question. It was clear that Moira was involved to anyone that knew of their close friendship with one another. She had dedicated much of her days in Talon researching methods to stabilize his form or to at least decrease the amount of agony that he lived in on a daily basis from having a body that was in a flux like his had been.]

She built on what was already there. [Because genetically tampering a person once was desperation of the military; genetically tampering with them twice was just pushing the boundaries of science for personal reasons. He hadn't been ready to die back then, and now he just plain couldn't die apparently. So, they had both gotten what they wanted, right?

Reaper stepped in closer and above on the rafter, Wraith walked along overhead. The peacock was watching the proceedings carefully, ready to intervene to take on the other Omen as he closed the distance on Lance.

He held out a hand for the bandage material, calm and assured.] And you're a tortured soul, hijo. On some level you can't explain, I think you like it because it's comfortable since it happens so often. [He stopped just within touching distance.] Let me bandage you. Then I promise to leave.

[azurestar]

[It's a slight distinction that separates them, so it doesn't make him feel better on the subject, but it's an improvement. He knows Moira was kind more than a little morally gray and did questionable things. But she was genuinely trying to help him, he knew that much… he can only assume she was trying to help Reaper too. With what, he doesn't know and he'll never admit to being curious about it or ask.

Once again, he glares at Reaper when he calls him hijo, it's just one more thing that reminds him how much he really can't trust him fully. Even if their relationship is in that weird gray place and the man has filled some need he didn't know he had that nobody else did before now. He watches him closely and his coyote does the same to his peacock.]

I think you're describing yourself, pendejo. I don't like being tortured.

[His fear response is kicking in as Reaper comes closer, heart rate picking up and breath coming a bit shorter. The slow approach helps but it's clear Lance is fiercely against him coming closer at all. But he's also against him even being here. There is a big noticeable difference, though. In the past he'd be panicking and starting to glow and sometimes get even hostile. This time, he's clearly anxious and triggered, but the glow is faint and the hostility is more of a warning glare.

That promise to leave is enticing, but he loathes that Reaper is making it a tit for tat… even if the exchange is letting him help him. He doesn't want it, he doesn't want any of these conflicted feelings, this man has hurt him so much and continues to by ignoring his boundaries. But… if he has to put aside his pride for a moment to get this to end, to get another moment of peace…

He snarls and then scoffs, his head turning to look sharply away and down, every part of him coiled tight like a wounded animal ready to strike at any second. His omen stands on the beam nearby with the same energy, watching closely with its ethereal spirit wings out and ready to flap whereas normally they aren't even visible.] …Fine.

[no_reload]

And yet you continually put yourself in situations where you are tortured on some level, don't you? If not physically, you definitely do it to yourself emotionally.

[He waited to see if Lance would go nuclear as he drew closer, keenly aware that they were in a populated area and that would go south real quick. He suppose that he should set up a parameter and usher the people away, but quite frankly, if Lance went nuclear, they probably couldn't get clear anyway. Leave them be.

He watched the conflict, aware that it had to be a delicious internal struggle. It went against the grain of their relationship, which always seemed to border on hostile no matter the conversation or distance between them.

Wraith remained calm and certain, just like Reaper. His omen walked along the beam with the same steps as he made, but the peacock was staring at Lance's omen instead, spurs clicking against the wood with each step. If anything, Wraith's form became more smoky at the edges and denser in the middle.

Slowly, Reaper reached out to take the roll of gauze and stopped once he was at an appropriate distance to bandage Lance's open injuries.] Let's have a look, shall we? The faster this is done, the faster we separate. Isn't that a good thing, yes?

[azurestar]

[Lance growls at him for that, his powers flaring like some kind of wild ocean creature's dominance display.] Keep saying shit like that if you wanna get roasted.

[But even as he says it there's a wobble in his voice and demeanor. He's at war with the part of himself that has started to come to terms with the reality of what's happened to him, and the part that it weak to this sort of gaslighting. The part that still needs to believe he had control enough to be to blame for everything that's happened to him and that he's done to other people when pushed by dark forces.

His jaw clenches and he's coiled tense as Reaper approaches that glow still threatening and definitely hurting him further, but he doesn't go nuclear. When Reaper is close enough to take the gauze, his non-injured hand is in a tight fist against his thigh and he tries to not let his injured hand shake, but it's not happening. His jaw is visibly clenched and he scoffs through his clenched teeth at Reaper's commentary.]

Just get it over with.

[When Reaper goes to examine his hand, he will find what is probably a very familiar bite wound. It's leaking red blood that has light absorbing dark streaked in it. If he dares to push the edges of Lance's flesh apart to get a better look (which won't get a good reaction) he'll find what looks like a dark nebula under the skin, the beginnings of Lance's slowly increasing corruption.]

[no_reload]

Promises, promises...

[Reaper might have come on with a soft confidence of someone who planned on delivering what he had planned on doing to the best of his ability and thus he would be more helpful than antagonistic, but he knew Lance was teetering on the edge a bit. He watched and knew he could go to smoke before anything too nuclear happened to him. That was the benefit of being him.

With the gauze roll in hand, he leaned down slightly to examine the wound. It wasn't the best light, but it wasn't as if he was going to offer to suture anything either. He just let Lance get used to him being there, making a soft humming sound as if he were considering their options on wound care.

He did note the strangeness beneath Lance's skin, but again, the light wasn't the best to determine if it was a trick or some show of Lance's power. Eventually, he moved his hands so he could begin to wrap the old bite wound with the gauze. Even he liked to say that he had done a good job, tying it off and tucking the tail into a lower layer of the gauze.]

Flex your hand and let's see if it moves much.

[azurestar]

[He is fine, totally fine. Well, definitely the opposite of fine, but he's handling the proximity well enough. The anger helps, the resentment that this was the deal he has to stomach to get just maybe a day of peace from him. He knows Reaper sometimes watches him, even just finding out by chance once or twice was enough to reason it happens more than he's directly aware.

So he resents that he'll have to make this deal and then wonder if he's really being left alone. And he resents how long Reaper is taking to figure out how to treat his hand, he resents how carefully he finally does it. By the end he's still glowing and shaking with all of those feelings, but he resolves to say nothing. Just powers through.

He does as asked, flexes his hand, even if he feels like it's completely unnecessary and Reaper is just stalling to test him. It doesn't move, and he grits his teeth against the twinge of pain and then pulls his hand to his chest as he grinds out a response.]

It's fine. You can go now.

[Distantly, he's mildly surprised Reaper didn't mention anything about how his boyfriend likes to bite. And also… resentfully grateful.]

[no_reload]

[Joints were the worst for bandaging, what with all the potential for slipping. It was a balancing act of having the bandage snug enough to be effective and keep from falling and loose enough to not trap all the blood there and cause swelling. It seemed that he had, so far, hit the right balance. Time would tell with use if his assumption on the matter was correct.

He could feel the warmth radiating off of Lance, aware that the kid was barely holding it together, but he'd give credit that Lance did actually not just blow up. Look, the kid was learning some real valuable time in the realm of self control.

He chuckled at the dismissal, making certain to shrug his shoulders. He stepped away with a flare of his coat.] As we agreed, yes. Don't push yourself too far while I'm gone, alright? Otherwise, someone might come to check on you.

[Maybe he'd call on someone to check on Lance while he looked on from a distance. However, a deal was a deal, and he stepped off the beam that they had been working on and fell to the ground below. He landed far more softly for someone of his size should and didn't even look back.

Wraith lingered for longer, bobbing that head before giving a sonorous war cry and taking to the wing to follow after him.]

[azurestar]

[Lance tenses and despite the flare of heat around him, a chill enters him and makes him feel sick at those parting words. He stares silently and hard at Reaper's back as he leaves feeling torn and sick and adrift. It takes him a while to get back to work in any kind of real efficient way. Eventually, he retreats from the work site to find a place he hopes is safe and secluded: the shores by the sea caves.]