[ But he can't really complain about being healed. He needs it. He needs the cuts and bruises on his body to close, he needs to feel better so he can stand by Flynn's side, so he can protect Blue, so he isn't a deadweight on this world like he was on his own for so long.
He lets out a sigh, the magic taking the edge off of his pain. He could address that, talk with Flynn about how Flynn needs him, but he isn't ready to talk about that, to really know that, because he's not good at being needed. He's not good at being wanted, better at showing up and doing what he can for a moment ]
I should shower. I...
[ But that means he has to move, that Flynn can't be touching him like this, and he really just wants to keep Flynn close to him.
It feels like weakness, the way he needs Flynn, now. He kept this back, back home, it was easier to stop feeling this way when Flynn wasn't with him all the time, but having him close, sharing a bed, spending so much time with him, it's like that weak spot has grown bigger, like he can't resist as much as he used to.
And maybe it's because he knows that Flynn wants this, too. That it isn't just him, watching his best friend excel, watching him be great, and wanting to be there with him, wanting to support him and help him. Flynn wants to be there with him, too, and Yuri still doesn't quite know what to do with that ]
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[ But he can't really complain about being healed. He needs it. He needs the cuts and bruises on his body to close, he needs to feel better so he can stand by Flynn's side, so he can protect Blue, so he isn't a deadweight on this world like he was on his own for so long.
He lets out a sigh, the magic taking the edge off of his pain. He could address that, talk with Flynn about how Flynn needs him, but he isn't ready to talk about that, to really know that, because he's not good at being needed. He's not good at being wanted, better at showing up and doing what he can for a moment ]
I should shower. I...
[ But that means he has to move, that Flynn can't be touching him like this, and he really just wants to keep Flynn close to him.
It feels like weakness, the way he needs Flynn, now. He kept this back, back home, it was easier to stop feeling this way when Flynn wasn't with him all the time, but having him close, sharing a bed, spending so much time with him, it's like that weak spot has grown bigger, like he can't resist as much as he used to.
And maybe it's because he knows that Flynn wants this, too. That it isn't just him, watching his best friend excel, watching him be great, and wanting to be there with him, wanting to support him and help him. Flynn wants to be there with him, too, and Yuri still doesn't quite know what to do with that ]