[ Flynn presses the cloth into his hands with numb fingers.
He can take care of himself.
Of course he can: he doesn't need Flynn and he's made that abundantly clear, despite what he says here. Needing Flynn-the-Knight to be okay—to do the things he promised Yuri he would, to bear the standard of their ideals into the new world—is not the same as needing Flynn-the-person, and Yuri has really never needed him.
Nobody really needs Flynn-the-person. Sodia certainly doesn't want him, and His Majesty Ioder doesn't seem to know what to do when Flynn attempts to joke with him, or brings up some fact of his life from before the knights. He has tried to explain a few dozen times why the issues of equality matter so much to him and why he fights so hard for the voiceless masses with little money and less power, and Ioder is certainly sympathetic but there's always a—
There's something. A distance, a discomfort that falls between them, marking Flynn as not of the same world, and nobody in his new circles knows what to do with that.
And Yuri doesn't need him, so that makes nobody, except that Flynn should really stop feeling sorry for himself and focus on helping Yuri because Yuri may not need him but he isn't getting up off this couch and he does need healing, and rest, and Goddess only knows what else. For Flynn to have been there, for Flynn to have not abandoned him to torture, but he can't help that so he has to do better now, and with that knowledge burning like a brand in his head he shoves himself jerkily to his feet, trying not to look at the blood coming away on that damp cloth. ]
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[ Flynn presses the cloth into his hands with numb fingers.
He can take care of himself.
Of course he can: he doesn't need Flynn and he's made that abundantly clear, despite what he says here. Needing Flynn-the-Knight to be okay—to do the things he promised Yuri he would, to bear the standard of their ideals into the new world—is not the same as needing Flynn-the-person, and Yuri has really never needed him.
Nobody really needs Flynn-the-person. Sodia certainly doesn't want him, and His Majesty Ioder doesn't seem to know what to do when Flynn attempts to joke with him, or brings up some fact of his life from before the knights. He has tried to explain a few dozen times why the issues of equality matter so much to him and why he fights so hard for the voiceless masses with little money and less power, and Ioder is certainly sympathetic but there's always a—
There's something. A distance, a discomfort that falls between them, marking Flynn as not of the same world, and nobody in his new circles knows what to do with that.
And Yuri doesn't need him, so that makes nobody, except that Flynn should really stop feeling sorry for himself and focus on helping Yuri because Yuri may not need him but he isn't getting up off this couch and he does need healing, and rest, and Goddess only knows what else. For Flynn to have been there, for Flynn to have not abandoned him to torture, but he can't help that so he has to do better now, and with that knowledge burning like a brand in his head he shoves himself jerkily to his feet, trying not to look at the blood coming away on that damp cloth. ]
One moment.