[There’s a moment of silence as he looks down and visibly thinks it over. He has been burning himself up to save others.
Always controlling himself. Always standing on his own leash. Never giving more than he has to. And Kaeya pinning him with difficult situations hadn't just been about a game.
It has been forcing him to stay grounded. He pops his shoulder and says,] Learn and adapt. I can’t keep going like this. I wouldn’t treat a sword the way I treat myself.
[He has to forge all the fractured pieces of himself into something new. The twisted wreck he has used for a self since his father’s death isn’t going to work. Not any more. He shakes his head.] It starts with letting myself off my own leash.
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Always controlling himself. Always standing on his own leash. Never giving more than he has to. And Kaeya pinning him with difficult situations hadn't just been about a game.
It has been forcing him to stay grounded. He pops his shoulder and says,] Learn and adapt. I can’t keep going like this. I wouldn’t treat a sword the way I treat myself.
[He has to forge all the fractured pieces of himself into something new. The twisted wreck he has used for a self since his father’s death isn’t going to work. Not any more. He shakes his head.] It starts with letting myself off my own leash.