"I want to help with those too, it...it shouldn't just be on you guys. I've been asking Snow for some pointers in helping out there."
Because that's a whole other strain of guilt for him, Luz carrying too much for the house. The scars left by the Farm on Luz's back does very little to ease the guilt. He thinks about the numerous scars he's got from his time here, how that sort of thing can hurt much deeper than the scars themselves.
"That's not good, Luz! That's...those are awful! And I didn't know it was that bad and that- that's the sort of thing that's causing the problems."
'The problems' being his own corruption. He closes his eyes, willing away the images in his periphery. They're not real, they're not there.
"I just- I keep not seeing how badly you guys are suffering," he knows, at least, what snowballing mess is getting him here. "Usagi is corrupting, Fern was so badly hurt when the moonflowers died, Shiro's been shoving himself into...into danger all the time and-and now here you are and you've been through hell too. So many people I care about are hurting and I didn't even realise. What sort of person does that make me?"
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Because that's a whole other strain of guilt for him, Luz carrying too much for the house. The scars left by the Farm on Luz's back does very little to ease the guilt. He thinks about the numerous scars he's got from his time here, how that sort of thing can hurt much deeper than the scars themselves.
"That's not good, Luz! That's...those are awful! And I didn't know it was that bad and that- that's the sort of thing that's causing the problems."
'The problems' being his own corruption. He closes his eyes, willing away the images in his periphery. They're not real, they're not there.
"I just- I keep not seeing how badly you guys are suffering," he knows, at least, what snowballing mess is getting him here. "Usagi is corrupting, Fern was so badly hurt when the moonflowers died, Shiro's been shoving himself into...into danger all the time and-and now here you are and you've been through hell too. So many people I care about are hurting and I didn't even realise. What sort of person does that make me?"