"You understand what I meant quite well." Of course, seeing Maul's memories had been pretty instrumental in getting to understand how the inside machinations of his mind worked. "They want to see me become more like them, and while not impossible, that is not likely to happen anytime soon." Maul's personality, even if he was to become a good and kind person, wasn't programmed the same way that others were based off the experiences in his past. It was possible he was never going to be that way and a big part of him didn't want to do that.
He didn't want to have to let go of his anger and hate, the two things that had sustained him for so long. To be without them is something Maul simply refused to do.
"That's how Usagi explained it to me. That I would feel bad if something happened to those I care about. And I have before in Deerington when I was brainwashed and went on my killing spree. But.....the problem is that people expect me to feel it for everyone and I've only barely started feeling that for the handful of people I care about here. To suddenly feel that for all people is something I am just simply incapable of doing." Maul's empathy only extended so far in the twisted, limited, and stunted form it had already been allowed to grow into.
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He didn't want to have to let go of his anger and hate, the two things that had sustained him for so long. To be without them is something Maul simply refused to do.
"That's how Usagi explained it to me. That I would feel bad if something happened to those I care about. And I have before in Deerington when I was brainwashed and went on my killing spree. But.....the problem is that people expect me to feel it for everyone and I've only barely started feeling that for the handful of people I care about here. To suddenly feel that for all people is something I am just simply incapable of doing." Maul's empathy only extended so far in the twisted, limited, and stunted form it had already been allowed to grow into.