"I hate it when this happens. I've always hated it," and Fern's died more than once now, this is not Varian's first rodeo. "It never feels right without him here."

And, of course, he's always scared Fern won't come back. It eats at him quietly, even if he won't put it into words. The chances always are that Fern just...stays dead. He's not alive back in Ooo, he's always on borrowed time- existing so long as Trench allows it. Varian's terrified one day that time will just...run out.

"Hah, it's definitely how we're like," that's putting it lightly. "If I didn't give him grief for it, it'd be weird."