[Oddly enough, Keith would understand that. He'd been there in his life. It was why he'd gotten such a bad rep in school before Shiro sponsored him for the Garrison, because being a jerk and fighting other kids was easier to deal with than the grief of losing his father.
He didn't look up from Lance's injured tail right away, not until Lance said he didn't hate him. And, he definitely was listening... up until Lance said he hadn't failed.
His gaze dropped to the dock for a second before he looked back at the scarf, checking to see if the bleeding had slowed or stopped.]
Right. Which was why Shiro had to beg the Black Lion to let him pilot it again, right? Because I didn't fail the team by not being there. Besides, Shiro had all the better ideas, right? [He shrugged.] It's fine. We can't go back and change it now anyway.
[Keith had already settled in his mind that he'd just totally screwed everything up during his first attempt at Black Paladin, and that's why Shiro had been taken back by the Lion. That was why no one really argued for him to stay when he said he was going to head off on the mission with the Blades... why everyone always went with Shiro's ideas instead of his.
Shiro was the better leader at the time. Keith still felt he was at times, but they just had different styles, and he was settled into his own now. But he definitely failed the first run.]
I just... [He sighed.] I know I'm missing a lot. I know there's a lot you guys aren't telling me. [All of them, Shiro included. Keith had noticed.] But keeping secrets from each other isn't going to make things better. And, in this kind of place, we're going to need each other.
I'm not... I'm not going to push about it. But, just consider it, okay? [He leaned back, satisfied that the bleeding had stopped enough for now.] You guys are all I have here. I don't want to lose that.
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He didn't look up from Lance's injured tail right away, not until Lance said he didn't hate him. And, he definitely was listening... up until Lance said he hadn't failed.
His gaze dropped to the dock for a second before he looked back at the scarf, checking to see if the bleeding had slowed or stopped.]
Right. Which was why Shiro had to beg the Black Lion to let him pilot it again, right? Because I didn't fail the team by not being there. Besides, Shiro had all the better ideas, right? [He shrugged.] It's fine. We can't go back and change it now anyway.
[Keith had already settled in his mind that he'd just totally screwed everything up during his first attempt at Black Paladin, and that's why Shiro had been taken back by the Lion. That was why no one really argued for him to stay when he said he was going to head off on the mission with the Blades... why everyone always went with Shiro's ideas instead of his.
Shiro was the better leader at the time. Keith still felt he was at times, but they just had different styles, and he was settled into his own now. But he definitely failed the first run.]
I just... [He sighed.] I know I'm missing a lot. I know there's a lot you guys aren't telling me. [All of them, Shiro included. Keith had noticed.] But keeping secrets from each other isn't going to make things better. And, in this kind of place, we're going to need each other.
I'm not... I'm not going to push about it. But, just consider it, okay? [He leaned back, satisfied that the bleeding had stopped enough for now.] You guys are all I have here. I don't want to lose that.