[god. she can't even bring herself to feel pathetic right now. this is turning into a full cry, a real one not just out of pain or relief but out of finally getting the one thing she has wanted for longer than she can remember. this hadn't happened since... since. god. since before she'd started her transformation into A2. and she had wanted that reassurance for so long, but by the time she'd come back to her actual reality, astin had disappeared. rose and freya were never touchy-feely. kara had found another girlfriend, and lillian was dead.]
[so she'd kept it all inside until now. now, as she's letting her tears stain satoko's shirt. as her crying gets harder to ignore. her fingers press into satoko's back. this poor girl who's so much older than she could ever let on. who didn't ask for an adult woman to have a breakdown on her. it's too bad that this, too, is anna's actual reality.]
[she may be here for a while. even when she finishes crying, which she can't predict (and who truly could?), she won't be able to speak. her body shakes.]
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[so she'd kept it all inside until now. now, as she's letting her tears stain satoko's shirt. as her crying gets harder to ignore. her fingers press into satoko's back. this poor girl who's so much older than she could ever let on. who didn't ask for an adult woman to have a breakdown on her. it's too bad that this, too, is anna's actual reality.]
[she may be here for a while. even when she finishes crying, which she can't predict (and who truly could?), she won't be able to speak. her body shakes.]