"Back home, my feelings were the same as when I left. No killing. The other place and here, perhaps? On occasion, it may be necessary. My first real battle, it should have been necessary." And a shadow crosses her face, blue eyes going dark with the memory of dying in a field in her then-boyfriend's arms.

"It's easy to believe in easy answers when one is young or has little experience of the galaxy. But regret...that remains no matter how much experience one has." She's upset at herself that she let herself get controlled by a telepath. Again.