[Luz sighs, looking down at her hands. She didn't even know if she could explain what she was feeling, because she hardly knew why she was feeling this way. It had started with not being able to help Usagi, realizing she was being a burden to her friend, and then when that experience was repeated with Lance, starting to feel like her impact was small.
And she knew, KNEW, that the big problem was that their pain was different from hers, that their grief and anguish was a chasm she had trouble looking down. Her rational mind understood this, conceptualized that what they were going through was so painful they didn't want her to have to be burdened with it.
Yet...]
It's not that. Or well, maybe it's not quite like that. I feel like...people see me as a kid before they see me as someone that can help them, and that they're right! And I should be satisfied that there'll be someone who can help them, it doesn't have to be me!
But then I ask myself: if I can't help, if I can't make people happier, what good am I?
S'OK, it happens!
[Luz sighs, looking down at her hands. She didn't even know if she could explain what she was feeling, because she hardly knew why she was feeling this way. It had started with not being able to help Usagi, realizing she was being a burden to her friend, and then when that experience was repeated with Lance, starting to feel like her impact was small.
And she knew, KNEW, that the big problem was that their pain was different from hers, that their grief and anguish was a chasm she had trouble looking down. Her rational mind understood this, conceptualized that what they were going through was so painful they didn't want her to have to be burdened with it.
Yet...]
It's not that. Or well, maybe it's not quite like that. I feel like...people see me as a kid before they see me as someone that can help them, and that they're right! And I should be satisfied that there'll be someone who can help them, it doesn't have to be me!
But then I ask myself: if I can't help, if I can't make people happier, what good am I?