It can be worrisome. But if you learn how to control the blood and learn how to use it to your advantage, it becomes a little less frightening. A little less strange.

[She's always learning about the blood and what it can do. It's beautiful, sometimes, and frightening, and a little peculiar. She's made weapons with hers and learned how to manipulate the blood rather well over time.]<

No, it isn't madness. But I would have thought the same thing, had I been in your position. I would suggest talking to some fellow Palebloods about how they cope with it all.