That's not what's happening, he wants to shout. His teammates, his family, isn't here. They aren't the ones who deserve to be here. They haven't done anything - they haven't made the mistakes. They haven't let down everyone who cares about them.

It should have been me

Walking into the ocean. Going down into the pit. Transforming into something vast and terrible. Going home only to just stop being. It should have been him.

So why shouldn't it be him now?

"They ... don't deserve it."