[jesus. she can't remember the last time anyone said that they wanted to be with her like this. certainly not from anyone who she'd just had a crying, screaming breakdown with. it's barely knowable, but it's her life now, and she doesn't have to understand it to appreciate it. she can just be here with kainé, letting each of them have something that neither thought they deserved.]

I thought I'd lost my chance. I thought there were a thousand off-ramps my life could've taken by now and I just missed every single one of them. [she is going too romantic with this too fast. she has to pull it back. they don't even have a name for what they are yet. come on, girl. get your endorphins in check. which is something she will attempt to do by speaking eloquently and carefully.]

Thanks for not being weirded out by all my stupid soul bullshit. I'm really glad you stayed. So we can learn more about ourselves.