( Peter looks down at her arm as she exposes it to him, eyes widening at the sight of the veins. He's quiet, somber as he listens to her words.
He's seen it, in her. At least some of it. What she's... capable of. Peter will never forget it; that quiet, controlled violence. How she'd smashed something to a pulp— all the blood. And the coolness with which she'd behaved afterwards, detached from emotion. She hadn't seemed human at all.
But she'd saved his life. That violence was used to save him from a horrible, painful fate. )
....I got really badly Corrupted once before this. Back in December. I don't remember it, but apparently I.... was really bad off. Really aggressive and... violent. ( Peter swallows, reflecting back on what Luna had told him about it. How he'd behaved, how he hadn't even responded to the name Peter anymore.
A monster. If that's what severe Corruption does to him, then what would Beasthood do...? )
I acted like Paimon when he's all... dangerous, when he's out of control. I hurt people.
( A pause, as he gathers some of the thoughts that have been accumulating within him, but not given voice. Not until now, with her. Because he feels like he can tell Lucille this. Lucille, who knows about monsters, about violence. Ironically, that makes her feel safe to talk to. )
Maybe it's... better I look like this now. Because at least then people can see me for what I really am underneath, you know? Something... ugly. Bad.
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He's seen it, in her. At least some of it. What she's... capable of. Peter will never forget it; that quiet, controlled violence. How she'd smashed something to a pulp— all the blood. And the coolness with which she'd behaved afterwards, detached from emotion. She hadn't seemed human at all.
But she'd saved his life. That violence was used to save him from a horrible, painful fate. )
....I got really badly Corrupted once before this. Back in December. I don't remember it, but apparently I.... was really bad off. Really aggressive and... violent. ( Peter swallows, reflecting back on what Luna had told him about it. How he'd behaved, how he hadn't even responded to the name Peter anymore.
A monster. If that's what severe Corruption does to him, then what would Beasthood do...? )
I acted like Paimon when he's all... dangerous, when he's out of control. I hurt people.
( A pause, as he gathers some of the thoughts that have been accumulating within him, but not given voice. Not until now, with her. Because he feels like he can tell Lucille this. Lucille, who knows about monsters, about violence. Ironically, that makes her feel safe to talk to. )
Maybe it's... better I look like this now. Because at least then people can see me for what I really am underneath, you know? Something... ugly. Bad.