No, trust me, I understand. It's all about degrees of it, right...? Like, I've met people here who have been through so many things way above my own pay grade that I don't even know how to relate to them.

[kainé is one of those people. she's handling this part first because she doesn't really know how to bring up the next part without bringing down the mood. maybe, she considers, the mood is already down.]

So all I can do is think about how I spent most of my life being tugged in one direction or the other, and when the time came and I could finally start writing my own story... [sigh. people like protagonists with flaws, girl.] I just sat there getting wasted. For five years. It took almost literal divine intervention to snap me out of that shit.

But it's real, you know? [it feels like she's missing something important about all of this, but she doesn't know sayo nearly well enough to put her finger on it.] It's this feeling like you're trapped in whatever the world has planned for you. And I can't even say that at least we're getting a fresh start here because we were all just swept up in the current and dumped into the ocean anyway.