[she sees that and it's alarming. she wants to get him to an actual doctor, not one of the quacks claiming blood medication]
I'm an only child. When I was very young, I lived with my grandma on Bgztl. But she was murdered and mother decided I was old enough to go on the diplomatic circuit. There was only one other child, the son of Earthgov's diplomats, but he was sent away after we humiliated his parents and Mother.
So then there was only me. Mother used me as a spy, so I could never feel close to anyone. And if I ever seemed upset or sad or lonely, Mother would get angry with me. So there was no one I could confide in, no one I felt safe with. And Mother only cared about me as much as she could use me.
I felt terribly alone and I couldn't tell anyone because I knew it would get back to Mother. Even when I left to join the ballet, I was alone because I was the youngest first principal dancer in their history. Everyone assumed I must have done...something to earn my place.
Even with the Legion, I'm alone. They think it's great how I can be strong and shoulder all of their burdens without complaint. But there are times I want to scream out loud that I'm not okay, that I have problems too, and all I want is for someone to listen to me.
(CW: murder, implied transactional sex)
[she sees that and it's alarming. she wants to get him to an actual doctor, not one of the quacks claiming blood medication]
I'm an only child. When I was very young, I lived with my grandma on Bgztl. But she was murdered and mother decided I was old enough to go on the diplomatic circuit. There was only one other child, the son of Earthgov's diplomats, but he was sent away after we humiliated his parents and Mother.
So then there was only me. Mother used me as a spy, so I could never feel close to anyone. And if I ever seemed upset or sad or lonely, Mother would get angry with me. So there was no one I could confide in, no one I felt safe with. And Mother only cared about me as much as she could use me.
I felt terribly alone and I couldn't tell anyone because I knew it would get back to Mother. Even when I left to join the ballet, I was alone because I was the youngest first principal dancer in their history. Everyone assumed I must have done...something to earn my place.
Even with the Legion, I'm alone. They think it's great how I can be strong and shoulder all of their burdens without complaint. But there are times I want to scream out loud that I'm not okay, that I have problems too, and all I want is for someone to listen to me.