[Pale face barer and more exposed than usual, L's eyes are wide and questioning. Has he screwed up already? Was that intended lighthearted remark a little too bittersweet?
How the hell can he be open with anyone? He's going to mess up, he already has, he'll just continue to do it until it wouldn't be fair to ask Shōyō to put up with him anymore. Just like earlier tonight, when he sent Paul home with a mass murderer rather than risk him being in L's presence for a second longer.
His smile is more broken and twitchy than he wants it to be. At least when he tells people to leave, it's on his terms. Shōyō saying he won't just makes L appreciate him more, and no, that's hardly ideal, if he wants to not be selfish about all this.
If only Shōyō knew why he is different, and why that's a bad thing and a ticking time bomb.]
I'll do my best.
[I'll let you down, I'll let you--]
Can I... I just need the lavatory. Sorry... I'll be right back?
[His heart is hammering. It's like he can't get enough air inside his lungs.]
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How the hell can he be open with anyone? He's going to mess up, he already has, he'll just continue to do it until it wouldn't be fair to ask Shōyō to put up with him anymore. Just like earlier tonight, when he sent Paul home with a mass murderer rather than risk him being in L's presence for a second longer.
His smile is more broken and twitchy than he wants it to be. At least when he tells people to leave, it's on his terms. Shōyō saying he won't just makes L appreciate him more, and no, that's hardly ideal, if he wants to not be selfish about all this.
If only Shōyō knew why he is different, and why that's a bad thing and a ticking time bomb.]
I'll do my best.
[I'll let you down, I'll let you--]
Can I... I just need the lavatory. Sorry... I'll be right back?
[His heart is hammering. It's like he can't get enough air inside his lungs.]