That's awful. And it's what happens to me, too, when I try too hard. Headaches and nosebleeds. I'm sorry that your own powers are closed off.

[she's tried and tried and tried to phase. even got halfway there once. but she can never get fully there, despite her best efforts]

Here, I can use fire, ice, and lightning. None of my teammates back home can do all three. And I worry about that, that the powers will come too easily in the end.