deercountry | Blessed Day [Open]

Who: Tara Maclay and OPEN
What: Dealing with her Blessed Day
When: May 7
Where: The Sanctuary Courtyard, the Gardens

Content Warnings: Talk of death, numbness and grief.

The Sanctuary

[Seated in front of the guardian sapling, Tara managed to connect her energy to the earth and everything beneath. It was risky, possibly drawing in darker forces than her magic ever allowed. The puzzle of it, was finding the pure energy and weeding out the bad. She liked the challenge, it kept her occupied and pressed her to have more active control over her abilities. This place largely had good energy, what she had been searching for.

There were flashes of memory, even as she tried to put everything else from her mind. 'Your shirt'. A "POP", a sudden sting and then nothing. Endless peace, comfort, and rest.

Tara sighed, severing the connection to the earth. She pressed her gloved hands to her eyes, well aware that meditation wasn't happening today of all days. Though she had no idea what any of it meant. Blessed day. What exactly was supposed to happen or what was she supposed to feel? At the moment, she felt numb, not really feeling "blessed" on her death day.

She noticed a figure from the corner of her eye and forced a smile to her face, getting to her feet.]

Are you here to see the grounds or are you here for help?

The Gardens

[Bausphomette. They were the most honest and empathetic of the Pthumerians, though why she had never reached out to them, she couldn't say. Maybe because it was an effort to figure it out, along with so much else in this place. She had been here for half a year, but still never spoke to her Pthumerian Patron. It occupied her as she tried to remember if someone had told her before, leaving her restless.

She likely looked like she was lost, pacing back and forth around the grounds.

Summoning was easier in Sunnydale, here, did it require blood or something?

There were others here, though she didn't pay much attention to them at first. Some came, others went, it just meant there were figures in the park. It was only when someone came directly in her path that she pulled out of her daze, fumbling to smile.]

S...sorry, am I in your way?

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You do?

[That touches her more than she can say. Ange's concern and warning was something she needed. She had felt alone and isolated with her hollow feelings. Knowing there was someone that cared and actually a friend, she couldn't express how much she needed that.

For that, she hoped that she could always give some sign how she cared.]

You don't have to go if you want to talk? This has been making me a bit anxious. Maybe also you could help me think what to do if they never answer me

Huh?

[ It's as if Ange didn't expect the other to stop her. She looked like she was about ready to walk away, but freezes up when Tara suddenly speaks up with that, her eyes widening slightly as she looks over at the other. ]

You.. Oh. Are you sure?

[ For all of the confidence Ange usually tries to outwardly project so hard, she's definitely missing some smoothness when it comes to social situations like these. It leaks out a little more than usually due to her surprise.

It's hard to not feel surprised by every kind offer of friendship when you're so entirely unused to ever receiving any, after all. ]

I don't mind staying. [ She's honest about that. ] I just thought you might want to have contact with them alone. But if you'd rather have someone else around too-- then I don't mind.

Of course, why wouldn't I be?

[She seemed surprised by that and Tara could relate, honestly. She had been the same when she first arrived in Sunnydale. But if anyone addressed her, it was enough to leave her startled and uncertain.

A lack of social experience was something she understood and would never judge anyone else for.]

I think I'd like to have someone around for a bit. I should try and get out of my head.

Then I'll stay. [ The decision is apparently that easy for Ange. As long as Tara wants her around, then she'll stay - at least for a little while more. ]

Maybe we can see if we can figure it out together.

[ Especially if the other is saying she wants to get out of her head. What's better for that than to actually talk your thoughts through with someone else? ]

You've always been helpful, even if it's just in comforting. I wouldn't mind your input.

[And she honestly just liked having Ange around.]

I've tried meditating with others, sharing their energy and emotions. It's just slow going.

Maybe I'm impatient?

[ Ange pauses, seeming to think.

She slowly exhales as she shakes her head. ]

I don't think that's necessarily impatient. [ And she's not even saying that because she likes Tara. ] I mean, how many months has it been now since you've been walking around with that condition? I'm pretty sure anyone would be sick and tired of not having anything change about it after that long.

[ Ange would be. For sure. ]

I mean, it'd be different if you had even felt any small change already from your efforts.. But have you?

[ Because it didn't really sound like Tara's condition got better in any way. ]

No it's still the same. Sometimes when I'm meditating with others and helping them with their corruption, I can feel what they're feeling and it reminds me what I forgot. But that's also what's probably making me impatient. I got a taste of it, so now I want it all back.

Healing isn't so simple, even with broken bones.

[Which is to say, as a witch, she has never sped things along that way...

...and saying that makes her realize what she's trying to do.]

Oh. Right. This is something broken that needs to heal.

I don't know. Some people here have healing powers that do often make it seem pretty simple.

[ She sounds a little hesitant about saying that, since she doesn't want to downplay Tara's problem. On the other hand, Ange can't help but feel that there's got to be someone in this place who ought to be able to help her.

There are so many people here, from varied worlds, with varied powers.. surely one of them must have seen a case like this before, or be able to do something about it even without prior experience. ]

Maybe you'd be able to find a solution if you asked people over the network. [ That statement is followed by a slight pause, before Ange admits: ] Even if I know it's not that easy to talk about it.

[ Especially in front of everyone in this place, if it's that openly on the network.

But sometimes you have to make hard decisions to solve difficult cases, right? ]

Blessed Day [Open]

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