nobody said it'd be an easy ride

[faceblocks]

Who: vi and various people
What: catchall both open and closed eisdamme or eisdamme#7495 if you want some other thing/any thing.
When: august
Where: various places

Content Warnings: needles, being sick because alcohol, parental death, prison, drugs, disease, murder, mental/emotional/physical abuse, tba

the rest of the starters will follow tonight. pls be patient i am melting.

Comments

[icanhearscreams]

I see. I... never really learned all of that. I didn't really... I guess I never really cared enough to try to learn.

[People are awful, and he's seen the ugly side of so many people. A lot of it wasn't directed at him, but he still bore witness to how the others coped with their traumas - or didn't cope at all.]

... I'm ready. I'm not... going to hold anyone back anymore.

[faceblocks]

I only knew a little, and it ...well, it wouldn't have been enough, anyway. But what good am I out here, hunting beasts and unable to help someone ...get up and out safely? I've had enough of fucking shit up, of always being...

[ugh]

...I've just been a fist for so long I'd like to be a helping hand, too. [she says this unironically, sighs, and makes a gagging gesture - finger pointing to her open mouth.]

Okay, good. Crunches or squats? [again, he is sounding a lot like her sister. god, that hurts. what better way to channel that hurt into physical pain?]

[icanhearscreams]

You're helping people. Save beating yourself up for the beasts.

[He huffs a little at the question. Neither is what he wants to say, but he has to keep pushing.]

Squats, I guess? Since I don't really know how to do crunches.

[Sounds painful.]

[faceblocks]

Yeah, they're plenty willing to do it.

[neither is a valid answer. a lot of people would give that answer and not just think it. she might be reading that neither on his face, because honestly, had she ever really wanted to do squats? nah, they were just a means to an end and later ...a maintenance phase and a distraction. a way to count days.]

Let's go.

[she will do these with him. and then it's going to be crunch time. and it's going to suck.]