( open ) I can't control withering wonders

[jedies]

Who: Alucard, Ahiru and Obi-Wan + You
What: Memshare prompts from the Test Drive
When: September!
Where: Around ish!

( prompts will be in the comments below. if you have a preference, please reach out to me @ timmtams or pm this journal! )

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[ananym]

[ alucard falls silent. his gaze seems fixed on the wine in his glass. ]

. . . Perhaps it is for the best. That I could do such a thing that no one else could.

[fogsong]

I-I don't know about that. I mean, it's going to haunt you for the rest of your life, Alucard. [ she wants to tell him that it's not fair but he already knows it's not fair. he had to do something no child should ever have to do. she saw him shake as his father reached out; saw the look of horror and pain in his eyes. ]

[ananym]

That is how it should be. When it comes to the slaying of kin.

[ he knows he's haunted. by the deaths, by the last screams he heard. and he's made some progress in moving forward, but it'll never go away. ]

[fogsong]

Could no one else have killed him? Do you feel like you deserve to be haunted for doing what you thought was best? [ she's killed family before and... she doesn't think it haunts her. what they did, that is what haunts her. ]

[ananym]

I doubt there was anyone else powerful enough to kill Dracula. Or would have tried.

[ even within the vampiric court, that would have been difficult. ]

And regardless of what is best . . . he was still my father. I am his son.

[fogsong]

[ she leans back into the couch, feet pulled up beneath her, as she frowns lightly. ]

He is and you are and I think you did what he would've wanted. [ in fact, it almost seemed like he let him. ]

[ananym]

. . . Yes. In his heart, he knew.

[ the world's longest suicide note, alucard had called it. he had been right, but it was a terrible thing to be right about. ]

[fogsong]

[ she falls quiet as she sips at the wine in her glass, frowning, and turns her attention to the fireplace, gaze distant. ]

That's what matters. [ that he knew. that he let it. that he came to his senses, if just a little, in the end. jesus, this is dark. ]

I totally didn't drag you out here to get all sad, by the way. My brain just keeps getting stuck on it. How about we talk about something lighter, huh?

[ananym]

[ that brings a faint smile to his lips. alucard is used to these topics so he didn't mind all that much. ]

What did you have in mind?

[fogsong]

How about you tell me what you like to do in your spare time in this crazy place? [ she leans forward like she's gossiping ] What do you do for fun?

[ananym]

[ alucard has the grace to look a little sheepish. ]

Actually, that is the part I have yet to discover.

[fogsong]

[ she smiles lightly and gives a soft, understanding hum ]It took me a couple of months to find something myself. I ended up getting the advice that I should do what I enjoyed back home.

So, what did you enjoy doing back home?

[ananym]

Sadly, I did not do anything in particular. After . . . my parents passed, all I did was take care of the castle and the hold.

I had . . . nothing else.

[fogsong]

[ Oh. Oh. That is very sad, Alucard. ] It... It happens. I've always heard depression takes everything we love from us.

What did you enjoy before all that? [ before his parents passed but she doesn't want to say that. she doesn't want him to think of their deaths, she just wants him to think of before. ] Did you read or write? Paint? Ride horses? Something nerdier, maybe? Like research?

[ananym]

I was taught in all of those subjects.

[ and once he grew up, it was easier to absorb them all. he is a vampire by nature. ]

But I'm not sure if I would consider them to be passions.

[fogsong]

It doesn't have to be a passion for you to find it enjoyable, Alucard. I'm not exactly passionate about astronomy but I sometimes enjoy stargazing.

[ananym]

[ alucard falls quiet for a moment. ]

I think that's why I came to this place. All my life, it is filled with fighting and protecting. I've never felt connected to anything else. It's always been the battle and the emptiness that follows.

[fogsong]

Whatever the reason you've been brought here, I think you've got an opportunity in front of you that you should take advantage of. [ there's a thoughtful sympathy behind her words. this world has afforded her a similar opportunity. ] Who knows what things you'll find you love in this weird ass city?

I'll help you out if you ever need it or want it. I've been kind of slow to branch out myself. It's really easy to fall back into old habits.

[ananym]

Thank you. That is a very kind offer.

[fogsong]

Don't mention it. [ she waves it off with her free hand ] It can be tough figuring shit out on your own. I mean, I had my own mother here with me and it still took me months to really find a place for myself. In some ways, I'm still trying to figure it out.

[ here, she shrugs ] Maybe helping you will help me.

[ananym]

Perhaps it will.

[ alucard has always functioned better when he works alongside with someone else. he doesn't do too well on his own. ]

[fogsong]

[ she shoots him a soft smile as she drinks more of her wine. most people she knows here have figured themselves out already. it's nice to be around someone in a similar boat. ]

[ananym]

[ it is nice. it reminds him a little of being around sypha. it gladdens his heart somewhat. ]

[fogsong]

[ she'll sit there with him in a comfortable, cozy silence as they sip away at their wine, refilling whenever either one of them empties their glass. it doesn't take her too many glasses to start getting a flush on her cheeks. ]

[ananym]

[ he seems to notice that. ]

A bit much?