deercountry | i've looked at clouds from both sides now (𝐧𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐥𝐥)

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i've looked at clouds from both sides now (𝐧𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐥𝐥)

^{Who: Peter Graham + you! Prompts will be placed here.
What: Canon update business, potential event things, tba.
When: Through the month of November.
Where: Various places in Trench / tba.

Content Warnings: This character comes with demonic possession by default. There's a gif including nudity (non-sexual, just a couple of people shown naked from behind) in one of the posts.}^{Additional warnings will be placed in individual spaces.}

^{( On Peter's birthday and Blessed Month, he will go through a canon update that's given him updated memories. For weeks 1 - 3 he will mentally be MIA, and Paimon/Charlie may be interacted with. On week 4, Peter will return. Closed starters will be placed under the appropriate posts. Please hit me up @ plot post / plurk / large bat#2354 / pm if you're interested in a starter / if you'd like to plot for the month! )}

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( Paimon's eyes widen just slightly as the boy grabs his wrist, fingers forced back to his forehead. There's that anger again, and the demon, who is so sensitive to emotions, to energies, stares down to those eyes. Razor-sharp and challenging.

The demon king is not used to being challenged, and is not meant to be challenged, defied, spoken to so aggressively. Disrespectfully. It ripples unpleasantly against the spirit of himself, and something within him curls with an anger and a heat of its own. He goes very still, inhumanly so. Nothing moves, there is no breath from his vessel's lungs. His eyes swell impossibly black, two holes that threaten to swallow everything in front of them alive.

But the flash of displeasure begins to dissolve, quietly. This is no insolent child. This is an entity whose true age and species and composition Paimon has yet to truly learn. This is something that has known witches (and pain from them, and suffering). The boy's voice, energy, will not back down.

And so the demon king will match that energy, and he will not back down, either. He will provide what the boy demands. The passion for it intrigues him, the rawness of that anger. Humans are rarely so genuine with their emotions.

Paimon's fingers push forwards, splay across the boy's forehead. It's slow and gentle, but not hesitant. Still staring into the sharpness of Dito's eyes, he concentrates, wills his own energy to blossom and spread. And soon, Dito will feel hazy, perhaps pleasantly so — like being in the lulled aimless safety of a dream. Floating. Observing.

The demon conjures thoughts for him. Concepts more than anything static. A pulsing alien thing that transcends description but can be felt, brilliant light coalescing into iridescence, colours no human has seen. None of it hurts, not shared like this. This is only a projection of his spirit, not an actual exposure to it.

After a few moments, he changes it into something that has more form, almost becoming images, though still hazy and dreamlike. A figure sits proudly atop a humped animal with a long, slender neck — a dromedary camel. The figure's head is crowned in great horns and a sparkling golden crown. It's clearly a man, but its face is effeminate, lips bowed, soft. He is Lucifer's most beautiful king, and he knows that he is.

Other things may slip through into the vision, snippets of disconcerting inhumanness — scaled legs and clawed feet, a thin whipping tail. The shapes of those even change, though, into various types of claws and scales, sometimes feathers, an amalgamation of ideas. Humans have depicted him a number of ways, though all similar enough. None of this is his "true" form, but it is still a way to introduce himself.

Through everything is the feeling of something that has existed for a very long time, moving through the sand.

The "dream" will end as it began, hazy, gentle, the smoke rolling away and gradually clearing Dito's vision again. )

[As Paimon moves to once again touch Dito's forehead with one splayed hand, Dito feels the heady sensation of the demon's mind touching his own, like sinking into thick and tepid waters. The descent is gentle and pleasant, almost like being comfortably drunk, and yet he has to quell the instinct to rebel; to struggle against it like a body's involuntary response to dreams of falling. Paimon had told him that his mind could not be entered without permission, and Dito remembers something he'd read about demons-- how they, unlike humans, were incapable of speaking anything but truth.

Fractured images flash across his eyes, images of otherworldly beauty and animalistic hideousness both. The latter interests him much more than the former-- humans were infuriatingly anthropocentric when it came to their supernatural imaginings. A final image comes to him-- a humanoid figure with a beautiful mask hiding a gaping, cavernous maw deep with sharp teeth. The image lingers even as the mental link fades, like the spots that linger after one has looked at the sun too long. A golden unnatural glow seems to brighten his eyes, before he blinks and the light disappears.]

So you're a centuries-old demon in the body of some weak-looking kid. Seems like you got the short end of the stick, all told. Does he know you're in there? Why was he chosen?

( He slowly removes his hand, lowers it back to his side. Gives a long, slow exhale, feels his spirit shift and move within itself as though it, too, is taking a breath of air. It's been a very long time since he shared himself in this way — not as an object of terror, but simply being seen and known. As much as something like him can be, at least.

Even for Luna, whom he shares a literal demon-witch-bond with, he is careful with exposing himself, given past incidents and accidental pain inflicted upon the girl with his spirit. So this is... nice, to be able to stretch certain muscles, to reveal his spirit to someone else, even if it's only the concept of a thing, dreamlike. It's still an introduction that reaches deeper than trying to explain who he is, when he still struggles with such a thing. He feels pleased, and a spark of thrill. This is an important connection he's making. )

He knows of me, though it has taken.... much time for him to understand what I am. ( Paimon existed within the boy for nearly a year before Peter even so much as learned his name. It's been a long process. A difficult one. As he speaks, the demon adjusts the flame again, having noticed Dito pull back from it a few moments ago as though uncomfortable. It dies down into a much softer glow. As for why Peter was chosen... it's strange, complicated. Paimon is quiet for a few long moments before he responds. )

The People who summoned me... I was to be kept hosted within a specific bloodline. He was meant to be mine from his birth, but... he was kept from me, by his mother. I was placed within a temporary vessel until he could be removed from his mother, and made ready for me. Made vulnerable.

( Paimon glances down at himself, the body he lives within now. Contained, like a bird within a cage. )

He was not meant to.. remain. His spirit. But when we awoke in the place before this one, the Dream.... he stayed with me. He is weak, and he flinches from me still, but I desire to teach him to grow stronger. He grows older, and I will shape him.

[Dito can't imagine what it must feel like to share a body with another person. It was bad enough feeling Five's influence through his every facial expression; every forced pitch and cadence of his voice. If he had been made to actually feel her presence in his mind, he didn't know what he would have done. Gone insane, most likely. Or vomited copiously until his stomach ruptured. Anything would have been better than having her live inside him like a cancer.

He shakes himself out of his thoughts when he feels his face twisting in disgust, and once again thanks his lucky stars that he now has the freedom to make such expressions ("such unsightly faces", Five would have said, with that pout of disapproval that always made him want to drive his spear through her own face). Dito crosses his arms over his chest and tosses his head.]

Tch. Seems like a lot of work just to deal with a squatter. I would've just killed him first chance I got. Why bother trying to "shape" him? What does that get you?

( There's a small flicker of something like mirth to the demon's dark eyes. Oh yes, that is a very good question. He responds without hesitation, sorry not sorry, Peter. )

I intended and sought to be rid of him. I was nearly successful.

However..... when we arrived in the Dream, we found a powerful witch. She grew to feel love for him. And so she and I came to a deal. She became my witch, to work and grow with. In return, I would allow her to keep him. I would not swallow him whole. ( He glances back to Dito with a hum of thought. )

He is not as burdensome as he once was. There is much work to be done of him, but someday he will learn from me and assist me, as my human container. In this place... I will be more powerful if we function together. I must simply be patient...

( It has taken time, will take more time. The demon king is not one to rush, but his eyes flick back to Dito. He's willing to bet the mysterious child with the sharp teeth and claws would much rather take immediate action, and he almost smiles as he flicks his hand to summon that gold coin he promised all those months ago, holding it up to him. )

...for rewards will come once they have been promised, to those whom have waited.

( It's all so exuberant... but Paimon took that network post very seriously, and he's looking at Dito with what is meant to be Kingly Adoration. Unfortunately, given the alien intensity of that gaze and the offbeat curve of his mouth, it probably just looks like he's something particularly delicious that the demon wants to eat.... )

[There's something preternaturally savage in that expression, something that seems both strangely fitting and startlingly out of place upon that pretty, boyish young face. The discussion of love never failed to dry up any of Dito's libidinous thirst, but that look of hunger on the demon's face as he speaks of patience; of rewards long overdue...

Dito's tongue darts out to lick at suddenly dry lips. He suddenly realizes that he's unconsciously taken a step forward, close enough to feel the intoxicating heat radiating off of the demon's body. He wonders if it's the hellish power within the demon or merely the temperature of the body it currently resides in, and decides that it doesn't really matter. He reaches up to take the coin, feeling a delicious shiver pass through him as his fingers accidentally brush against Paimon's.

The disciple's voice is low and throaty when he finally replies, the offer leaving his lips before his brain can properly catch up.]

...Do you wanna get out of here? Out of this cold, I mean. My place is in Crenshaw, not far from the lamp. Or we could head back to your place, if you prefer.

( Paimon, ever-attentive to the subtle shifts and nuances to the other, sees it, perhaps also feels it — an intensity reflected right back. This entire interaction has been a perpetual force of intensity, of observing and learning one another, and there is much more to learn. But the important thing is that connection has been established, and it pleases the demon king so very much. It's important, even essential to how he functions.

When Dito steps closer to accept that coin, Paimon hums contentedly, eyes sparking again; oh, he can grant so much more than simple gold, but in this place, it's a start. It should be sufficient for Dito to barter with, or perhaps simply to keep as a trinket if he prefers. But there is more, so much more, to be given to those he becomes close with. And perhaps he is on that journey with this mysterious young man whom he has shared his spirit with.

The way the boy looks up to him, the brush of fingers, even the drop in his tone — Paimon perceives them all as Dito being affected by his presence, by what has transpired between them. Feeling the importance of everything just as much as Paimon is. A thrill shudders through him, one that feels like static electricity. He is being invited to spend time at one's abode, an important and respectable thing....! )

I should like to see your home. ( He practically purrs, making the fire he'd conjured vanish away into a little curl of black smoke, so that he can move with Dito. ) Do you live alone?

[Wait, that actually worked? This interaction's going better than he'd hoped. It's a testament to Dito's character and how his mind works that he immediately starts wondering about the logistics of copulating with a creature who's currently inhabiting someone else's body. He's read a bit about demonology and possession-- even fought with soldiers who were controlled by vengeful ghosts-- but to actually interact with such a phenomenon is a whole other beast entirely.

Was it possible for demons to exist outside a host's body, even for a short time? Or was it like a parasitic scenario where the demon would be sent back to wherever they'd come from? He supposes he'd cross that bridge when he came to it. The idea of forming a dalliance with such a creature is exciting, but not when it comes with a hanger-on like this pathetic looking kid.

He answers Paimon's question as they begin to walk in the direction of the lantern.]

Yeah, I live alone. No roommates to bother us or anything like that. I guess you'd know all about how irritating that is, yeah?

( Paimon's all too happy to fall into step, sweeping quietly alongside his new companion. There's another head-tilt at that, the demon taking a few long moments to consider the words. Irritating roommates....? Oh— )

—You mean my Vessel. ( He Gets It, after a few moments of thinking about it, and gives a soft sound that's almost a sigh. ) It is... difficult, to share space with him. We are very different. He does not take care with things.

However.... my Witch also lives with us, and she has helped me to establish my own space, to keep my things. It is... up high. I can show you some day.

( But back to roommates... if Peter is a problem, then Luna is the complete opposite, and he's glowing as he speaks more about her. )

My Witch is not at all irritating. I enjoy living with her. We spend... much time together. Reading. Making things. Do you like making things?

[Dito can't imagine sharing a body with someone else; being locked in the recesses of their mind until you could occasionally take control. Nor does he really want to-- having every bit of his personal space occupied by Five at any given moment was torture enough. If she'd had access to his thoughts, it would have been a fate worse than death.

Dito shivers again and draws his coat tighter around himself.]

Depends on what you mean by "making things." I know how to make an edible meal, and I'm pretty good at mending clothes and things like that. I'm more of a destroyer than I am a creator, though. Unless you count creating chaos. Which I do.

[He flashes a smirk in the demon's direction-- from what little he knows about the concept of hell, chaos is exactly what Paimon's type is acclimated towards.]

( A destroyer rather than a creator.... chaos. Paimon catches that glint to the boy's mouth. Oh, he certainly knows of chaos. But for him it is a cycle, requires a certain stability. His spirit is formed from the essence of chaos itself — discordant and loud, brass and percussion and wailing. His true voice is a roar that must be softened for his summoners, or else it may destroy them.

But he is also a being of creation, inclined towards and supportive of those in the Arts as much as the Sciences. People have come to him over time for assistance, for strength: for music, painting, singing like a bird. All things in creativity. His spirit shines for them. )

Creating chaos is an art form in itself. ( He sounds amused as he says it, almost jovial. ) However... there are things like the painting, and the instruments. Taking things apart and... reshaping them. ( He makes dolls out of anything he can find, has a magpie's collection of little bits and baubles to be used.

But he'd caught that shudder, and while he'd conjure another flame, it may be dangerous to carry it along with them, even if hovering in the air. )

You are cold, again. You may have my Vessel's clothing, if you wish.

( Just offering Peter's coat like this, sorry not sorry Peter...... but Paimon's seen him do it for Luna when she gets cold... )

[The sudden weight of the coat around Dito's shoulders startles him out of his reverie of chaos and destruction. Dito jerks slightly in surprise, his feet stuttering in their stride. The unexpected warmth enveloping him, caused by the demon's-- the vessel's-- residual body heat, causes another shudder to run through him. Whatever he had planned on contributing to the conversation flees back to the recesses of his mind.]

Hey. I ain't a charity case, all right? If I wanted some willowy milksop's clothing I'd just ask-- [It suddenly occurs to him that he doesn't know enough people around here for that descriptor to apply, and he finishes lamely:] I'd just ask, got it? I'm made of sterner stuff than most people give me credit for. I'm not weak.

[Despite his rough words he doesn't turn his head to look at Paimon, and appears to have no intention of shrugging the coat off or giving it back. Damn his weakness for creature comforts.]

( Paimon isn't familiar with the term "willowy milksop", but he gets the point well enough. Dito is, once again, irritated by the idea of being seen as less than — as weak. It's understandable, but the demon never assumed as much, and responds with his usual even-toned honesty. )

I do not think you are weak.

( —And tacks on that perhaps eerie, alien tendency to notice everything. )

I observed you flinch from the cold. Before, and then now. It is not weakness. You feel sensations in your body because you are one with it.

( A pause. )

It is something I believe I envy.

[Mollified by the demon's words and chagrined at his knee-jerk reaction, Dito doesn't answer right away, walking along in pensive and sullen silence as they make their way down the frost-rimed streets. They're almost to the light that will take them to Dito's house in Crenshaw before Dito speaks again.]

You say you envy me. What, you can't feel any sensations in that body?

( The demon falls easily into that silence, letting the other guide the conversation when and how he likes. He's learning, absorbing more about his intriguing new companion, and the demon is very comfortable to stay quiet. It's only when Dito speaks again that Paimon will also, although it comes after a lengthy pause of thought. )

I can... feel most things. But it is not... natural. For me to exist in corporeal flesh, for this long.

Some things are... dulled. Other things, I can not understand.

Does that sound strange?

[Dito finds himself shaking his head before he realizes that he meant to. A plume of white fog exits from his mouth as he huffs out a sardonic chuckle.]

My good sir... I've witnessed a woman give bloody birth to herself through a giant flower comin' out of her eyesocket. I have very high standards for weird shit.

[He pauses.]

Can't you just... you know-- leave that body? Even if it's just for a little while? I mean, is it like a parasite thing where you can't exist outside of him or... [He trails off.]

( There isn't much that can catch the demon king off-guard, and although he's.... a little surprised to hear that, he's simply looking over at Dito with a fresh spark of curiosity (curiosity, not disgust). Seems like he has pretty high standards for weird shit, too! But it's... interesting, nightmarish. Like something dug up from the depths of a person, an illusion, something he might cast.

—Which, speaking of.

The question has him tilting his head for a moment, and then he gives his hand a little wave again. Suddenly, there's another Paimon on the other side of Dito. It looks like Peter, but with fully golden eyes, glowing — another little trick. It smiles at Dito as the original Paimon speaks. )

Only in illusion. I am bound to the flesh of my vessel. ( He pauses, and the other-Paimon speaks now. )

However, I can make myself appear wherever I desire. Outside of him. Many places. It is not real. But it is.... fun.

[As much as Dito enjoys this creature's company, as willing as he would probably be to let this demon do whatever he wanted to him, having someone suddenly appear behind him like that elicits a rather strong startle response. Dito jumps, his hand gripping the haft of the spear at his side before his brain registers the familiarity of the voice. There's a sudden dull ache in his left shoulder-- did he strain it just now somehow?-- but it quickly fades, leaving him feeling rather embarrassed at his overreaction.

In an effort to compensate, Dito turns with exaggerated bravado toward the golden-eyed illusion, looking it up and down as if assessing a particularly esoteric piece of artwork.]

That's a pretty neat trick. Do your other senses carry over when you do that? Like... if I touched you, could you feel it?

[His hand is already reaching out towards the fake Paimon-Peter's face.]

( The demon pauses his stride for a brief moment when Dito jumps like that, eyes giving a purposeful stare. The boy really does have a kneejerk tendency to startle, rather like Peter, albeit with more of a volatile edge.... Paimon didn't miss the way that Dito's hand almost instinctively went to his spear.

Again, all of this is information that the demon king is absorbing about his intriguing new companion, learning about him. Like Peter, Dito has a... suspicious edge, nerves worn raw, perhaps. Unlike Peter, it makes him seem to want to strike out instead of hide. Paimon makes note of it all. )

I can perceive it, but... it is not feeling. Not like a human's feeling. ( It's difficult to explain, and he tilts his head as Dito touches the double, which does indeed feel solid and real to the touch. After a moment, Paimon makes the double flicker again, changing shape — lights coalescing and then scattering, and the illusion turns into a double of Dito. )

Humans may wish to see the visage of their loved ones like this. They may ask me to conjure it for them. But it feels no physical sensation in return. To me, it only feels like...... energy.

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[If it was startling to see a copy of the young man's visage suddenly sprout up behind him, then seeing a perfect facsimile of his own self was even worse. Dito jerks his hand away from his doppelganger's face as if he'd been physically burned, his eyes widening in surprise. It was almost as if he were gazing at a living reflection. His rounded, golden eyes. His youthful face. His wild untamed hair that Five had always rhapsodized was as soft and as irresistibly touchable as lamb's wool.

Everything, even the boyish contralto of his voice, was perfectly replicated. Everything about himself that he absolutely despised.

Dito feels his face twist in a sneer of disgust and fights to suppress it; fights to mold it into a less revealing expression of disdain or even annoyance. No sense in letting this demon know he'd just caught him off guard, right? He barks out a laugh, sharp in the deafening silence.]

Hah! Fat chance of anyone ever calling up that mug. I don't have any loved ones.

[There's absolutely no ruefulness in that statement. Dito forces himself to look at his twin for a few seconds more before turning on his heel and stalking off in the direction of the lamp post and home.]

C'mon. We're wasting time and it's colder'n an ice serpent's snatch out here.

( No loved ones.....? The demon stares quietly, eyes wide and searching, always — hungry to learn and understand. Dito doesn't seem... thrilled at the sight of his double, and suddenly he's turning away, moving off after that sharp laugh that cuts through the sterile chill of the air. The demon follows the boy in his quiet, sweeping movement, one that draws him along startling fast all of a sudden. With a soft wave of his hand, the illusion vanishes, dissolving into nothingness again.

Ice serpent? Is that a creature from Dito's home world? What is a snatch? These are questions to be asked perhaps later, although for now he's thinking on things. He draws closer to Dito again, but stays behind just a bit, so that he's following his lead over to the lamp post. Of course, it's as he's drawing to a halt behind the boy that he speaks up again, knowing none of a human's cautious awkwardness, the question coming out very soberly, and curious. This boy is not easy to read. He wants to. )

Have I displeased you?

[Dito pauses at the demon's query, his hand arrested in the air inches from the icy metal of the lamp post. Another harsh gust of wind slices through his clothing, making him stifle a moan of discomfort and draw his coat tighter around himself.]

What's displeasing me... [His voice is bitter from the cold and his own embarrassing weakness.] ...is that we're standing around here with our thumbs up our asses when we could be sitting by a warm fire with our bellies full of food.

Do you want that or not? Because if that's the case let's table the conversation until one of us isn't freezing his balls off. Sound good?

[Bravo on not making it sound like you've got something to hide, Dito.]

( It certainly isn't the first time Paimon's seen the sharpness around the boy's tongue — an acerbic, bitter thing. Another might earn a bit of wrath from the demon if they were to speak to him like that, but he has his own investments, here. There's no reason to flash his own fangs in response, and so he simply stands there slightly behind the boy, calm. )

I want whatever you want in this moment.

( That's... not a creepy answer in the least, Paimon! But he means it; he doesn't care about the cold, or about eating, only about continuing to speak to this intriguing new companion he's made for himself. Making Dito comfortable is the priority here.

With that, the demon moves closer, placing his hand at the back of Dito's where it hovers over the lamp — but not pushing down. It's his gesture to make, after all; the demon is just supporting him through it. )

[I want whatever you want. It's an ultimately supplicating turn of phrase, the kind Dito found himself using in the past to quell his mistress's many sullen moods. Something curls within his stomach, causing gooseflesh to prickle his skin, and he can't tell if his response is pleasant or unpleasant-- or even if it's due to the demon's words or the fact that he's positioned his host's hand so close to his own. Dito jerks his shoulder in a shrug, tossing his head.]

Tch. Whatever. Let's just get out of this squall.

[It's a short walk to Dito's house from the lamp-post, and Dito doesn't waste time with empty conversation. Without turning to see if Paimon will follow he climbs the steps to the front door, inserting the key into the lock and turning it with a flick of his wrist.]

Just to warn you, my Omen is out and about and she's a pretty judgmental bitch. Just don't pay any attention to whatever she says-- it's all just smoke, anyway.

( The transportation comes easily, and Paimon is perfectly calm through it (unlike Peter, who gets nauseated.....) The demon looks around with curiosity as he follows after Dito up to his doorfront, once again standing behind the boy like a towering bat..... curiously looking over his shoulder as the door is opened and a new threshold will be revealed to him.

But one word snags his focus and the demon king's neck tilts down, eyes wide. 'Bitch'.... it's a word he's familiar with (and one he has vastly misinterpreted as being an intentionally disrespectful way to refer to a witch....)

Confusion gives a rare little humanisation to the way he wears Peter's features, the slightest lift of brows upon a typically unmoving face. He's very curious to see what form Dito's Omen will take, in this case..... )

Are Omens not a representation of what is within their Sleepers' hearts? Perhaps yours speaks Truths you are not yet aware of.

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