i've looked at clouds from both sides now (𝐧𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐥𝐥)

[possessum]

<sup>Who: Peter Graham + you! Prompts will be placed here.
What: Canon update business, potential event things, tba.
When: Through the month of November.
Where: Various places in Trench / tba.

Content Warnings: This character comes with demonic possession by default. There's a gif including nudity (non-sexual, just a couple of people shown naked from behind) in one of the posts. Additional warnings will be placed in individual spaces.</sup>

^{( On Peter's birthday and Blessed Month, he will go through a canon update that's given him updated memories. For weeks 1 - 3 he will mentally be MIA, and Paimon/Charlie may be interacted with. On week 4, Peter will return. Closed starters will be placed under the appropriate posts. Please hit me up @ plot post / plurk / large bat#2354 / pm if you're interested in a starter / if you'd like to plot for the month! )}

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[possessum]

( The marshmallow's perfect, in Peter's opinion, couldn't get more marshmallowy and thick and goopy, the way it's melting into the chocolate, but he lets Robby reply (both from those tightening nerves and the fact Peter's no doubt already raved to Luna about her hot chocolate....it's long-ago won his approval.)

He hates to be the Voice of Doom, for an awkward beat wonders if he should have waited to say anything — at what point in the conversation do you bring up the uncomfortable thoughts of Demon Eavesdroppers, there is no wikiHow for this. But both Luna and Robby are quick to come in with reassurances, a squeeze to the knee and a smile that's soft and sympathetic. Both things matter, to him, and his breathing only stutters for a second or two, heart's frantic beats easing a little again.

He falls to listening, looking from one friend to the other. Luna calls him brave, and Robby tells him he deserves to feel like he belongs here, and Peter's exhaling quietly. Taking a moment to nod softly, teeth caught against his lip again for a moment. Robby's right about it being good for there to be more understanding, and those words are definitely a reminder as to why Peter has been trying more, to make things work, even if it's still not been.... enough. Even Paimon tried talking to him a few months ago, called some bizarre surreal house meeting, cast an illusion of himself outwards so Peter could talk to it, and he could.. barely get words out. (There was initially a lot of screaming involved, and he might have thrown his wallet at the Paimon-illusion.)

....He still has a long way to go. But this, this is a step, an important step. Talking about it with others, expanding his and Luna's circle outwards. Conversations with Peter being present instead of just... hiding away. He and Luna have been making things work, pretty well actually, and especially compared to the unrests of the past. But there's still... things that could be improved on, that could make it easier to exist like this. It's some weird thing that keeps changing, updating, because Paimon is changing and updating. And after the cocoon incident... it often feels like the demon is in threat of swallowing him up again, the way he used to be. )

Thank you. Both— I'm glad you're here.

( He's not alone, is the thought, again and again. A little smile sent to Robby, a hand moving to find Luna's free one and give a little squeeze. )

To be honest, I don't really know... how to understand him more. The way he thinks is so.... uh. Different. ( Peter speaks slowly, words weighted and oddly careful. He.... is extremely, uncomfortably mindful that he does not want to risk pissing Paimon off somehow, if the demon is listening. )

I mean, we don't really.... fight, like we used to. Sometimes, maybe, but... it's not like how it used to be. ( With the demon actively... attacking him on a regular basis. Peter looks over to Luna for a moment, as though for clarification that what he's saying is true, before glancing back to Robby. )

...He's tried to talk to me before, but it just wigs me out. No matter how much I try to be like... cool about it, I just— the sound of him talking in my head, the way it feels, it.... I can't do it.

( ....Clearly, Peter remains the real problem here. )

sob i'm sorry this took so long to get back to

[creidim]

[ Oh, yes. She made those marshmallows, yes. Unfortunately there's no convenience of the Hart Mart, here. One has to be a little more creative. But she's very glad that it's worked out well, grinning gently to herself. And the wards'll be fine, she thinks. But she can always drop by soon to double check on them. Merlin knows there's plenty that goes on in this world that might mean they could require a little maintenance every now and then.

She's quiet as she listens to the two of them, nodding here and there in agreement. There's problems, yes. None of this is particularly easy. And certainly recent events have... brought things forwards. Things are changing. But they're trying to work things out here, and that's good. ]

He is an incredibly ancient entity. [ Her eyebrows raise at that. ] I would say it's reasonable for a being that predates most religions to be a little difficult to understand for some, but there's way to communicate with him once you work out the right words to help him understand. I'm sure you've noted that yourself, Robby. [ Paimon does require a certain way of being spoken with. Sometimes explaining things does need a little extra work, but it's certainly doable. ] Sometimes it's like... explaining things very simply, but not treating him as if he's a child. Re-introducing concepts he's already familiar with to help cement things.

[ There's a soft hum as Luna confirms Peter's admission on the two of them fighting less often these days. ]

There's... disagreements. But Paimon... does recognise Peter's place and right to be here. He knows what happened to Peter was wrong, that it shouldn't have happened at all. [ But they're... unfortunately stuck like this now. Even after Peter died in Deerington, having the two of them remain separated once he returned from death just... wasn't feasible. ] And there is the whole thing of the deal we made. Paimon was to stop trying to push Peter out. Peter's important to me, and he recognises that.

I do know that does mean I'm the one keeping the peace. I... know that puts a lot of it on me, but that was my choice.

[ ... Yeah, sorry Peter. She loves you, but you're... definitely the problem, here. ]

Paimon is very much open to talking to Peter. But... yes, that.