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nie huaisang ([personal profile] fanfavors) wrote in [community profile] deercountry2022-11-23 11:23 am

catching them all

Who: nie huaisang and buddies
What: catchall log
When: nov/dec
Where: all places that exist

Content warnings: tbd

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[personal profile] xiaoxiuya 2022-12-16 08:37 pm (UTC)(link)
"Of course," Shen Yuan says, standing up with something like a close cousin to relief. "Why don't we go inside? I'll make a-Sang some tea." That will give him something to do, an outlet for his nervous (read: anxious) energy and a way to maybe, hopefully help Huaisang feel better that doesn't require much eye contact. He'd be mortified, in Huaisang's place. He is mortified, on Huaisang's behalf. At least when he went on that damned vision quest with Viktor, he knew it was going to happen and had a little time to brace himself, instead of...this.

He doesn't feel any shyness about entering Jin Guangyao's kitchen and using his things; he'll leave him a note later over omni, letting him know what they used and why, and most likely Jin Guangyao will simply thank him for looking after Huaisang.
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[personal profile] xiaoxiuya 2022-12-21 01:22 am (UTC)(link)
Shen Yuan makes himself stop and take a deep breath before he allows himself to speak. He can feel Huaisang's tension; his own is feeding on it, and the last thing he needs is to forget himself and snap at the poor kid. Man. Kid? God, how old is Huaisang really? Because he looked so fucking young in that vision, and it's leaking into the way Shen Yuan sees him now. How recently did that happen? How fresh is this wound?

"I don't want to make things worse," he finally admits, not looking up from the kettle in its spot on the stove. "Huaisang has already had too endure so much -- too much," he amends. "But I'm not good at...this. Being comforting. I don't want to say the wrong thing and add to that burden."
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[personal profile] xiaoxiuya 2022-12-25 04:58 am (UTC)(link)
"Of course I'm not --" he starts to snap, shocked and a little offended by the suggestion, but when he turns around and sees the look on Huaisang's face he...He just can't stay mad about it anymore. If for no other reason than because he oversaw the education of teenagers for three years, and even though everyone on Qing Jing was appropriately in awe of him they were still kids, sometimes they acted out regardless. Sometimes everything feels like it's all too much, and you try to hurt the people around you just to prove that you can. That you're not completely helpless.

Who knows if that's what's actually going through Huaisang's head right now, but it's how Shen Yuan's choosing to interpret his actions.

"I won't be doing that," he says again, and then he looks Huaisang right in the eyes and adds, "And he shouldn't have done it, either."

He could go on, comment on how it never sounds like Huaisang's joking when he calls himself good for nothing, and talk about things like self-esteem and abuse and many other things beside, and if he'd gotten even a hint from Huaisang that they'd land right, he'd do it. But he hasn't. And he doesn't want to push too far, when Huaisang already looks so brittle.
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[personal profile] xiaoxiuya 2022-12-30 01:35 pm (UTC)(link)
"Honestly? I think that's more than fair." Shen Yuan sighs and leaves the kettle alone to do his thing, coming over to sit next to Nie Huaisang. "The whole thing was just fucked up from beginning to end," he says frankly. "That's no way to each anyone anything, for starters. If I'd caught any of the elders treating a disciple like that while I was still peak lord, I'd have thrown them off the damn mountain."

Seriously! Not even the teachers at Bai Zhan were that bad at their jobs! Shen Yuan takes a moment to imagine how Liu Qingge would handle it if he discovered a Bai Zhan disciple's personal things had been destroyed as punishment and can only conclude that blood would have been shed. Not that any Bai Zhan disciple would have had such a large collection of objets d'art in the first place, but...surely even they would have agreed with Shen Qingqiu (the second one) on the principle of the thing.

"The fact that he was your brother on top of that..." Shen Yuan takes his head, lips tightly pressed together. He feels so strongly about how wrong it all was that it's a struggle to get the words out without shouting. "Family shouldn't treat each other so poorly," he finally says flatly.
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[personal profile] xiaoxiuya 2023-01-17 11:45 am (UTC)(link)
Ah yes, his outsider status. It's certainly weighing heavily on Shen Yuan's mind, making him question whether he has a right to even comment on this kind of thing at all. But still. The idea of just leaving it there, leaving Huaisang alone to wrestle with how his own brother treated him, is much worse. Shen Yuan would rather get yelled at for overstepping than that.

So instead he says, sympathetically, "It's no bad thing that he looked after you. But...it also seems to me," he says carefully, picking over his words like trying to walk through a field of sharp stones, "That that's the bare minimum of what he was supposed to do, as an elder brother. That he would and should have done those things for anyone who happened to share a father with him. But in terms of being a good brother of Huaisang specifically..." He shakes his head. "It seems like he fell pretty far short."
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[personal profile] xiaoxiuya 2023-01-30 09:46 am (UTC)(link)
"You shouldn't have to," Shen Yuan says quietly. "I'm not sure -- I don't --" He sighs in exasperation, rubbing his own face. "I don't know anything about this," he finally confesses. "If my brothers were here they'd probably tell you I've never let go of anything in my entire life." That's a self-deprecating joke; Huaisang is welcome to take part or to ignore it as he likes.

"But it seems to me that Huaisang has carried this burden long enough. If he's tired from it, he should...he should be allowed to put it down."