(closed) february catchall

[miyagimagic]

Who: Ange (entreats), Chizuru (tealeafs), Daniel (miyagimagic) and various others.
What: February shenanigans.
When: During all of February.
Where: Locations vary.

Content Warnings: Nothing right now, specific warnings will be in headers when they come up.

( starters in the comments! if you want to plot anything with me, feel free to either pm the journal or contact me at queeningsquare, i'm always open to new ideas and threads! )

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[tealeafs]

[ Robby is putting Chizuru through a real challenge here by trying to make her imagine this complex modern teenagers social scene while she's already not feeling her best necessarily..

But she's doing her best to keep up. She figures that Robby is telling her this story for her benefit, after all, because.. well, it's just what Robby is like. He's always trying to think of ways to make her feel better.

Even if she's not so sure what about this is supposed to make her feel better. Maybe it's just supposed to make it feel more relatable? That this stuff often happens when you date..?

It leaves Chizuru quiet and a touch puzzled for a moment, but then she slowly speaks up again. ]

Why did you feel crushed though if you didn't find it exciting..?

[strongroots]

[ Really, he's aiming for 'fill in the air with meaningless chatter so Chizuru doesn't have to think hard', but Robby might be underestimating Chizuru's need to be on her a-game. Even so, give him a second to think about that question. Why did he feel that way? Embarrassment, sure, but... ]

Pride. [ Yeah, that was probably it, huh. ] I felt like I should've done something more, or that I didn't really get this dating stuff. Maybe I missed my chance 'cause I should've taken her out more. [ A little Robby being a proper lady killer. ...girl killer.

But his voice is light, not serious. He chuckles, barely a sound. ]

The thing is, a lot of us are clueless about dating. But I bet you did a lot better than me on your first date.

[tealeafs]

W-Well, I.. don't know about that.

[ The answer is a little flustered, but nothing that seems to make Chizuru too sad. Maybe it's since Robby speaks about it so nonchalantly too, and Chizuru doesn't want to be the one dragging this down when Robby is trying so hard to pull it up.

It might be why there's a very thin smile on her lips when she raises her head again after shyly ducking it, actually looking back over at Robby. ]

But the rest of it.. I think I get that.

[ Even though it's kind of weird to imagine someone else feeling the same way she does. Chizuru is so hard on herself that it feels baffling that someone else could be even remotely hard on themselves too..

Especially in such a similar way. ]

Even now, I'm not really sure if I understood the dating thing well.. And whether I should've done more, or less, or.. [ ...

Chizuru's voice trails off, and the girl shakes her head. ]

I just hope I have made her happy. [ Despite this last hurdle. Sure, it would maybe be easier to just.. ignore this, and let their dating period end peacefully.. But something about that doesn't feel right. Not for Chizuru's sake, but-- even more so, not for Jinx's sake either. ] Just that would be enough.

[strongroots]

[ ...only Chizuru can hear an awfully embarrassing attempt at a young relationship and not think it's that bad. Granted, it did have a lot less revealing 'your girlfriend loves to talk about torture and killing' involved, but is cringe truly that far off from such horrors? It's a matter of opinion, really.

But what's just as typically Chizuru is that last remark--I just hope I have made her happy. That that would be what's on her mind than anything else, like a crippling disappointment. Has he thought that about Tory? No, he knows he hasn't; because in the space where such thoughts would be is an emptiness where that end exists. A relationship that just ended, and he isn't sure yet how--or if--the pieces will ever fit back together.

He's always been more selfish--more selfish than someone like Chizuru, who's selfless to a fault.

Robby rubs his hand against her arm as a reassurance, tipping his head to slightly rest above hers. Looking off, and saying softly, ] You were good, Chizuru. You tried your best--none of this changes that.

[ And that means something, even if it doesn't seem like it. ]

People don't always work out.

[tealeafs]

[ Chizuru seems to contemplate his words, especially those last few, for a moment. It's too much to think about herself being good after all, so it's easier for her brain to linger on the other thing instead.

For a moment the girl's lips are tightly pressed together in thought. Thinking too much about this topic, and what she'll have to talk to Jinx about, threatens to tie her brain into pretzels, but.. ]

.. it's not over yet.

[ Her voice is soft as she says it. ]

There's still a few days left until the end of the month, right..? And Jinx, she's-- [ She breathes. ] She's listened to me before when it comes to topics like these. Maybe she'll understand. And if it'll end after these two months..

[ Which is what they had promised, right? Two months, and then at least a break to think about it all, at the very least. ]

.. then I want to try and end it happily.

[ With understanding about this one thing.

With maybe some more fun activities after the talk until the month is over. ]

[strongroots]

[ He wonders how much will actually change; if some words of reassurance would be enough to keep a romantic relationship like this. Over this. Robby knows--or thinks he knows--that Chizuru wouldn't distance herself from the over girl entirely, but--anything could happen. Could she separate herself from someone she felt needed her, even if they didn't align with her morals?

He might very well soon find out. ]

Sure. [ So he won't say anything more than an acknowledgement, an understanding. The rest was up to Chizuru now, and Jinx. Robby just had to be there and support whatever decision was made, the aftermath. For now, he rubs at her arm idly, quiet for a moment. ]

...Do you want me to stay longer, or do you need some time? I can hang about. [ A reassurance, because he knows what Chizuru will be concerned about even if she did want him to stick around.

But if she doesn't, that's alright too. ]

[tealeafs]

[ Honestly, she'd love for Robby to hang about. She would pretty much always want that, feeling stronger in the presence of her friend.

.. on the other hand, she also knows she should probably prepare herself for this. Think about what to say to Jinx specifically, and how to say it. Despite the fact that she's trying to be optimistic here, it doesn't feel easy to have a talk like this - especially when Chizuru doesn't want to hurt Jinx either.

So she slowly shakes her head. ]

Thank you. [ It's not like she's going to waste an opportunity to thank him for his kindness, at least. ] But.. I should probably prepare myself. Um.. you know, for the talk.

[ She gives Robby a tiny smile. There's something awkward - no, nervous - around its edges. ]

But I can talk to you afterwards..?

[ Oh, Chizuru, honey.

You have no clue what's awaiting you. ]

[strongroots]

If you didn't, I'd send Luc out to find you. [ Because surely, something would be wrong.

But it's said with fondness, and Robby pulls back from his place on the sofa; giving Chizuru one last squeeze with the arm around her, and then standing up onto his feet. It's been an emotional ride, one that isn't over yet, and one he wishes he could do more for her than be a voice at the end of it.

Robby will be ready though, taking his omni back from her and walking out to the front door. He's got his coat and gloves to put on, and Chizuru usually does follow; and if she does this time, he'll turn around after exiting the door, one last tug of a smile to give her. ]

Good luck.