★ (OPEN); they're carvin' my name in the grave again.

[opheliac]

Who: jinx & YOU
When: 03/18.
Where: sanguine station , farther shores, crenshaw (POST MOB'S EXPLOSION), & the forest
What: jinx is running away from her problems, thinks she can actually leave them behind, and go live in the other city for all eternity.
Warnings: jinx suffers from mental illness. such as the following - schizophrenia, hallucinations, PTSD, & separation anxiety. these may or may not happen in this log. BIO, PERMS, & OP-OUT: Here

❝ Lately I've been talking with a ghost. ❞

❝ Two Face (Omido Remix). ❞

I. SANGUINE STATION | II. FARTHER SHORES | III. CRENSHAW | IV. FOREST (& LOST) | V. WILDCARD

He tells me all the places I should go
He makes me paint my face so that I know
That I'm not the only the person in my soul
He tells me that a monster lives inside
And when It gets too angry I should hide
Cause if I were to try and pick a fight
I would barely stand a chance and I'd die

Two face call me Harvey
Never know when it could change
Tried to talk to my reflection but he said he wants my name

Wake up the beast
Bury the bones
Enjoy the feast
Take all control
When I give you my soul

Devils on my shoulder
Got an aching down my spine
Feel like chains are getting heavy
But I don't know which are mine?
Can you save me?
Am I lost?
Is it Time to take me
From all of these thoughts

Two face call me Harvey
Never know when it could change
Tried to talk to my reflection but he said he wants my name

Wake up the beast
Bury the bones
Enjoy the feast
Take all control
When I give you my soul

code credit to: thisismanx

Comments

[opress]

Is that the story you have with your sibling too?

[That actually surprised him a bit. It didn't seem unreasonable, but even in a joke, it was probably the first time that he had met someone else who had a similar tale of losing and regaining their sibling.]

Did you too find her in a trash heap gibbering in madness?

[He snorted like a bull from his nose at her pronunciation of his younger brother's name.]

Feral. Maul and my younger brother. He's dead.

[But maybe someday Feral would appear on the shores.]

[opheliac]

Almost word for word. ( and when he asks his next question, she smirks and raises her hand sky high. )

Nope, that's me! — But she's a lil' cuckoo too in her own special way. Just a couple of whacky cards, she and I.

( but she'll drop down the jokes and cheer to show some empathy for the sky. )

But, uh, sorry about the younger brother thing. Losin' family is... never the easiest.

[opress]

[Huh, he figured that there would be others out there with a similar story, but this was definitely the first person that he had ever met. He regarded her closely as she wore that wet sand laden jacket looking small and pale.]

That does also sound like myself and my brother. He is definitely more eccentric than I am though.

[Feral was weak, and he had begun to convince himself that the death served to make him stronger. He pretended it didn't bother him much of the time. He made a soft noise in his throat as if to dismiss the sympathy.]

No. It was made worse that he died by my hand. That's in the past now.

[opheliac]

Oh, I... ( can relate. the girl swallows and her throat starts to dry heavily like the desert. but she pushes on through this conversation while nipping at her bottom lip.)

— Double sorry for that, then.

( clearing her throat, jinx begins to gear the topic over to something else entirely. more about him but something less... close to home. sorta. )

Soooo... did anyone take ya out for the Valentine's Day thing?

[opress]

[Savage looked down their height difference at her, perceptive enough to know that there was something more unspoken. He held his silence for the repeat apology, allowing an opportunity for her to explain herself if she wanted to.

When the subject changed, he didn't press. He felt no need to. So much of Zabrak society was done in looks and body language.]

No. But I did bed someone who spent the entire time blushing.

[opheliac]

"Bed someone"? Ya mean doin' the whole shebang?

( the girl is going to assume he means sex unless he cuddled with someone and they blushed the whole night through. in which, well, getting mixed up with chizuru -- apparently there are out in the world who would probably get flustered over something innocent as a sleepover. )

[opress]

Of course. Humans don't like the term mating I've found.

[He shrugged his shoulders. They had had a good time as far as he could tell. Everyone was owed a good time as far as he was concerned.]

[opheliac]

( grinning like an asshole, jinx nudges him with her elbow as obnoxiously as possible. )

Hey, hey, hey! — Look at you! Gettin' lucky and doin' the loopey-loop. At least one of us is gettin' it in, huh?

( it's not so bad knowing someone else is having a little fun but the fact her big sister did the same thing still rages her somewhat. despite she gave her the blessing, it's merely because she was planning on sneaking behind jinx's back to do it. thank goodness for misfires that day. )

[opress]

I don't think that luck has much to do with it so much as so many of the humans around these parts are desperate for affection but too scared to ask for it.

[He didn't think it was such a big deal, and it wasn't his first fling either.]

There doesn't need to be attachment to those you sleep with. Humans seem to mix that up.

[opheliac]

Right, riiiiight. One night stands, I dig it. ( some see intimacy as a performance being done during a relationship or something to wait during marriage even. but being raised in the undercity with a freaking brothel that was right smack in the middle of it all, running off to get someone to scratch an itch then dipping is a bit of the norm. it's strange how her view on casual dating and sex was what led the relationship with chizuru to blossom in the first place.

the other didn't believe jinx could be serious during a one-on-one thing if she preferred flings and one night stands. and jinx being, well, jinx -- she took that as a challenge. because she feels she can do both. being serious in a relationship but also do flings and what not if she wishes or feels like it. )

( sometime she wonders if she will get to experience something she had been curious about. most sleepers seem to have their other half already and if not, jinx isn't exactly normal or would be a normal partner. but if savage who eats the dead is able to do the devil's tango, why not her? )

[opress]

There is nothing wrong with them, though some might claim as such.

[He couldn’t say that he understood the reasoning, and let’s be real, sometimes having a fling was one of the few things that subadults on Dathomir could do with one another aside from constantly training and fighting. It at least kept them a little quiet, though it could be detrimental to some of them when their attention lapsed from being too moon-eyed about it.]

Where do your preferences lay?

[opheliac]

Huh? About what? ( she cocks her head to the side with a puzzled gaze. ) Sex? Relationships? Both?

( maybe he wants to know because others had told him it was strange. and maybe he believes her mind lies with everyone's line of thinking. but funny enough, jinx is the strange one out of all the normal flocks of hens. )

[opress]

I expect you have opinions on both.

[And he wasn’t one to deny hearing someone else’s opinion, especially if he was going to find it interesting. She was human but seemingly from a different place than any of the human-based planets that he was familiar with.]

[opheliac]

As an engineer and somewhat of a scientist, I'm all about exploring and experimenting. Not just with gears and doo-hickeys, but with human beings too.

( as she explains her view further, jinx is now checking her father's pockets of the jacket to see if there's anything in them. answer: nope. )

— Some are into waiting for marriage for sex or wait for the right person. Nothin' wrong with that. Whatever makes 'em comfortable. But the way I see it, how would you know what you like, what you're into, if you don't explore?

( the teen does a child-like spin as she looks onward to the ocean. )

'Sides, there's a lotta benefits in doin' the messy business. Reduces stress, burns calories, an excellent sleep-aid, and releases a hormone or the "feel good" tingles into your mind and body.