★ (OPEN); they're carvin' my name in the grave again.

[opheliac]

Who: jinx & YOU
When: 03/18.
Where: sanguine station , farther shores, crenshaw (POST MOB'S EXPLOSION), & the forest
What: jinx is running away from her problems, thinks she can actually leave them behind, and go live in the other city for all eternity.
Warnings: jinx suffers from mental illness. such as the following - schizophrenia, hallucinations, PTSD, & separation anxiety. these may or may not happen in this log. BIO, PERMS, & OP-OUT: Here

❝ Lately I've been talking with a ghost. ❞

❝ Two Face (Omido Remix). ❞

I. SANGUINE STATION | II. FARTHER SHORES | III. CRENSHAW | IV. FOREST (& LOST) | V. WILDCARD

He tells me all the places I should go
He makes me paint my face so that I know
That I'm not the only the person in my soul
He tells me that a monster lives inside
And when It gets too angry I should hide
Cause if I were to try and pick a fight
I would barely stand a chance and I'd die

Two face call me Harvey
Never know when it could change
Tried to talk to my reflection but he said he wants my name

Wake up the beast
Bury the bones
Enjoy the feast
Take all control
When I give you my soul

Devils on my shoulder
Got an aching down my spine
Feel like chains are getting heavy
But I don't know which are mine?
Can you save me?
Am I lost?
Is it Time to take me
From all of these thoughts

Two face call me Harvey
Never know when it could change
Tried to talk to my reflection but he said he wants my name

Wake up the beast
Bury the bones
Enjoy the feast
Take all control
When I give you my soul

code credit to: thisismanx

Comments

[opheliac]

( that is definitely true. she can come up with a very complex name that only she can pronounce and get. after all, these are her new things now. and despite their nature and their appearances, they need love too. at least that's how her skewed mind is seeing them. jinx can relate to them, being so vicious and out of control but they have basic needs like any other living things.

she shrugs nonchalantly over his concern -- the tail curling around her own midriff. )

I dunno. ( she simply admits. ) — Stay out here? Make it my new home? Don't think I really fit in with everyone else back there. And if I don't really fit in a place, I go somewhere else.

[wrenchedup]

You fit in with me. [ He answered plainly but earnestly as his attention turned back towards her. Vi had said that Jinx needed someone who understood, maybe just a little better, right from wrong. He wasn't exactly sure that he did. Everyone's right was someone's wrong and visa-versa. He cared, though. About people, and especially about the downtrodden. The people that no one else seemed to. Was he a great role model? Probably fucking not. Though he could handle unwell; and he could handle someone who maybe just needed a bit of reeling in from time to time but didn't need the judgement or shame that came with it. Cause he, too, was the same.

He would have killed Rempart if Aiden didn't reel him back. He fucking would have. He was so sure of it. He was fucking done with being friendly sometimes. Tired of non-lethal action; finished with giving a shit for the people whose entire fucking job was to control others. ]

I really need you to know that. I'm not gonna bullshit and say that I'll never disagree with you one day but that won't mean that you don't fit in with me. [ He breathed out and looked away for a moment. ] But I get it. Sometimes it feels like you're alone. Sometimes you really are. Sometimes shit is just too much and you need space.

I'll do whatever you want me to, Jinx. Stay here the night or head back. You can have what's in the bag as long as I can keep a couple for my trek back. And if you need it or want it, you can stay with me. I wont tell anyone.

[opheliac]

( she has such a love and hate relationship when it comes to people sprouting these things to her. for one, words like this are so painfully lovely, and the ice that's coursing through her veins reheats. and having that warmth flowing only has her to craving more of it, and maybe even to the point of desperation.

and it's the desperation part she can't stand -- how it makes her feel a little weak when she is meant to be a brutal criminal of all of runeterra. well, she's not in runeterra anymore and maybe in time, jinx will learn that this façade (while holds truth to her personality in some aspects) she carries doesn't need to be wore twenty-four seven. )

( so her wild persona evaporates and there, wrench sees nothing but a girl. a young face with big doe-like eyes that screams for wanting a home to call her own. many citizens of trench had seen this place as such, but for jinx, she views this city anything else but that. does she truly want to be out here in the woods on her own? yes and no. yes, for space but no for the rest of her life. deep down, she wants to go back to her sister and curl up beside her in bed like they use to do when they were little.

she wants to poke fun at ekko and bug him because it's entertaining to do. she wants to sit in the living room with usagi and drink hot chocolate or play video games. ... and she wants to sit up on a rooftop or somewhere high with chizuru while they watch the sunset. there's so much she wishes she could go back to what she was doing, but jinx feels she's no longer welcomed there. )

... Just... maybe fifteen more minutes?

[wrenchedup]

[ He had no idea the complexity of what she was feeling right now, the relationships she had, or the situation. He did know what it was like to feel weak and, in his case, stupid. Over and over he trusted and it fucked him and it was hard to not see only those times and not the times that it didn't. A person could be many conflicting things. He wouldn't tell anyone what he saw.

He nodded for her to come join him if she wanted, and if she did come sit next to him he might put an arm around her shoulder if she was comfortable with it. Weird place to be so gentle. The sun had set, the cold settled in, and the wolves beneath them were hungry. He really aught to be more scared than he was if he had any intelligence left in him, but eh.

Though he did spare a moment to look below. Yikes. ] Fifteen minutes it is.