[Oh boy, this sounds more and more familiar, and while Varian's got the benefit of years behind his terrible mistake, he knows the feelings surrounding it have never gone away. They've gotten better, yes, very slowly, but he always carries a pretty heavy weight of self-loathing around.]

...I can understand that, too. I- [he exhales] it's like trying to balance the scales, right? Like you but X amount of bad in the world so you have to put Y amount of good to make it...less bad.

[Varian knows his problems are at least gone now. Fixed. Even if there are wounds that will never heal.]

Is it something that can only be solved back home?