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#1 ([personal profile] zib) wrote in [community profile] deercountry2021-12-11 10:12 pm

I used to look up at space with hope and wonder in my eyes

Who: Zib, and possibly you? (Some threads closed, some open)
What: Event shenanigans in the form of paranoia and memories about aliens trying to kill you
When: Throughout the month of December
Where: Around Disaster House, or walking around on his own about the city and beaches

Content Warnings: paranoia, obsession, descriptions of cartoon violence, descriptions of more horrifying alien body horror violence, mention of parental neglect, mention of murder, identity issues, insults involving one's sanity, etc. will add more if they come up in a thread.

also, hit me up with pm or plurk if you want a starter of your own rather than one of the open prompts



Winter Mourning / outside Disaster House

Zib is not quite an official resident of the Disaster House, but his ship is currently here on their property while he figures out how to try to fix it and get it running properly again. And his friends had been nice enough to let him sleep on a couch instead of sleeping outside upon discovering that he... did not have a house he had any plans of staying at until this issue was resolved.

So not quite going full-hobo like he was since arriving, he's been in a rather good mood despite the ship crash. For the first time he can ever remember in his life, there are actually people he can think of as his friends that are willing to have his back, and it's gotten him thinking that maybe there are more things to find about this place to appreciate. Instead of, you know, attempting to run away and off this planet as soon as possible.

So once he hears about a Trench tradition to gather some bones together to create a decoration, he does just that, setting it against the outside of his ship in the driveway of the Disaster House for the time being. Maybe it will be a good luck charm--something to keep him going and hope that his ship will be repaired again soon.

Except... it glows, and touching it suddenly brings Zib and anyone else who may have come upon it into his memories. And there are two things that will become very quickly apparent to anyone upon finding themselves in this memory, regardless of which one it is.

The first thing is, Dib is very much human. Far more human looking in his past memories than he has ever looked since arriving in Trench despite attempts to disguise otherwise. The Dib of the past has normal skin complexion, proper ears and nose, and isn't wearing a ratty hood to hide the back of their head. Their glasses don't have a chip in them, and for all intents and purposes, they look like a normal child.

The second thing is that all of his memories seem to revolve around a central target: a small green alien named Zim. Even in memories where Zim is wearing a disguise, it's easy to tell that it's still the same person due to how tacky and lame the disguise is. No matter what form he's in, he is present in every memory of Dib's that can be brought forth when touching the antler decoration he made. Sometimes, it even feels like there's a sudden moment where you are seeing things from Zim's perspective rather than Dib's, before cutting back to seeing it from Dib's if you are unfortunate enough to get one of those type of memory journeys here rather than experiencing it as a third party.

Which begs the question of whose memories you are actually seeing in some regard, doesn't it?

As a result, you may end up finding yourself in one of the following:

A. The day these two first met and their rivalry began, from the look of things. It's... it sure is a lot! It seems like while Dib has been a nice enough guy here in Trench, he holds no such kindness toward Zim from the second they met.

B. One of, if not many, numerous ridiculous fights that these two have had since then. Dib finds out that Zim has an allergy to meat and throws baloney at him in the school cafeteria, Zim retaliates via injecting Dib with a method to turn him into baloney. Dib points out that a nurse might find it odd that Zim doesn't have human organs, Zim retaliates via stealing everyone's organs, including Dib's lungs. They chase, shoot, throw things at each other, yell about how they are going to defeat the other, and so on in a constant cycle of battles and escalating over the most riduculous shit, even if, arguably, Dib does have a point that letting Zim win could hurt the Earth even with the stupidest of schemes. Either way, Dib sure does get hurt a lot in his pursuit of saving the Earth.

Which one of these dumb fights did you get suckered into having to bear witness to? Will there ever be a day where this ongoing cycle ends?

C. The answer to that, dear friends, is yes. And unlike the downright ridiculous fights and sometimes laws of physics and logic getting thrown out the nearest window, the rivalry ends rather simple and brutal. There's no lead up to what caused this particular fight, as if Dib himself no longer remembers what was so different this time. It just starts with Dib, standing over Zim's body, the other bleeding out a bright pink fluid onto the floor of his lab. The little backpack thing that Zim wears has been torn from his back, lying in a mess of broken wires a few feet away.

And Dib stands there with pink blood on his hands, and for a moment, he actually looks confused by this outcome. He attempts to prod Zim's body, call his name... but Zim doesn't answer, and continues to remain lifeless on the floor. Dib looks down at his hands covered in thick pink alien blood, and just... stares, begins talking to himself.

"I... I did it? I actually did it... I actually beat him this time? That's... that's a good thing, so..."

But is it, though? What exactly happens after you've finally defeated your rival anyway?

He glances at the PAK on the floor nearby... and begins to reach out toward it...


Run Rabbit, Run / around the neighborhood and woods

[Once he realizes what the purpose of the Winter Mournings are, and as the month continues, he starts feeling sicker with paranoia. Not just towards others--did they see those memories? Are they afraid of him? Will they hurt him even if they don't know?--but also toward himself. Is he still Dib? Is he now Zim? Is he just a Zib after all, just as his alternate self had called him in that awful void?

So he distances himself. He goes back to staying outside working on his ship, exploring, and gathering supplies for his own needs rather than allowing himself to be in the physical presence of people. But that doesn't curb his paranoia--what if someone tries to attack him while he sleeps? So he builds traps all around his ship in case someone tries to touch or break into it. He keeps his hood up at all times, but prepared to lash out with a PAK leg the second he notices sudden movement. He even steals a couple of knives to keep in his closes just on the off chance someone gets past his PAK's defenses.

He isn't going to let himself be attacked. He refuses to die. He refuses to have things stolen from him.

Not again.]
droptheious: (You don't seem interested)

[personal profile] droptheious 2021-12-12 06:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[Zib has already told Varian about his father. The desperation he had to get any kind of validation from the man. It hit hard and it hit deep- horribly, painfully familiar. To be screaming at the top of your lungs and stuff not be heard by the person who matters most.

And yet...yet, he knows what it's like to be so deeply focused on science that he's dismissed other things outside of it. Magic, in his world. He never was as bad as this, but he's been frustrated with unscientific nonsense before, too. He is now, corrupted to the point of rocky skin, claws and fangs, if he didn't have the people around him pushing him to understand it would he have ended up this blind? It's not beyond the realms of impossibility.

He's not surprised by the amount of stuff Zib has. After seeing the ship...well, it was clear that Zib would do anything, take anything, to do what he had to. To protect Earth, to prove himself to his dad, to find some worth in himself- they were all mixed together and Varian understand that probably better than most people.
]

...It didn't work, did it?

[He hates intruding on memories. He hates how often this happens here. But here he is, and he can't help but ask.]
droptheious: (May find it quite explosive)

[personal profile] droptheious 2021-12-15 12:11 am (UTC)(link)
[The AI's attitude sure does explain a lot. Varian still watches this with growing concern and...something else? Anger? It feels like anger. A frustrated, snappish sort of anger. He's been here. He's had his thoughts and concerns brushed away like they were nothing. While he and Quirn made peace, worked it out, he still remembers what it feels like to be dismissed.

For a moment, it seems like they have met some sort of agreement, but no. Zib's father says that and he gets put down to nothing again. His rage against experiencing this himself, at seeing someone he sees as a friend going through this too, makes something snap in Varian's head. One moment, his eyes are the same old blue they've always been, and then the next they turn red. All red - like a fire is burning behind his skull.
]

That's STUPID! [Oh, okay, he might be shouting a little. ] How can he... how can he just ignore you like that? The evidence is right there? How...how blatantly obvious do you have to be?

[But Quirin ignored the rocks when they were right there. Sometimes there's such a thing as wilful ignorance. He turns his attention on Zib. ]

I'm...I'm so sorry you've had to go through with this. It's not fair.
droptheious: (What might be something I could save)

[personal profile] droptheious 2021-12-21 10:59 pm (UTC)(link)
[He definitely looks...very different and that leaves a whole slew of questions in Varian's mind. Ones he knows he can't really ask here in the memory, it wouldn't be fair. Varian understands the importance of privacy of a people's thoughts a great deal and doesn't want to cross that line.

He follows, because boy does he want to see what Zim looks like. So very, very much.
]

Well...I'll come with you, okay? As some backup.
droptheious: (Picture the two of us alone)

[personal profile] droptheious 2021-12-28 01:26 am (UTC)(link)
[Well. That sure is the little robot. Varian follows Dib inside, trying to cage his despite to try and work out how the thing works. This is not the time, he needs to focus on his friend. So he tries to focus on this. On the alien pulling himself out of the mess. This is definitely...really fucking weird. ]

...Did he try to badly clone your dad? 'Cause it sounds like he tried to badly clone your dad.

[Still, he knows that appearances can be deceptive. He was tinier and only 14 when he did what he did, and no one thought he was able to carry out the attack he did. So his tone isn't judgemental.]

That seems like a...not great plan?
droptheious: (She was a lot like you)

[personal profile] droptheious 2021-12-30 09:35 pm (UTC)(link)
[Varian's watching the entire exchange with a soft frown. This is a strange new experience for him, but the mood is horribly familiar. He shifts uneasily as the scene keeps moving onwards. He can't tell where this is going, but he can't see it being anywhere good. Not by the way Zib is holing himself. Not with how defeated Zim is. This is screaming bad idea. ]

...What- what happened next? Did you take him and show the world or... or did everything go...bad?
droptheious: (And killed me)

[personal profile] droptheious 2021-12-31 04:38 pm (UTC)(link)
[That speech about the energy of children honestly sounds like a disaster waiting to happen. Varian can think of a thousand different ways that can backfire horribly- much less because children aren't exactly always full of happy, peaceful energy to start with.

...And then THAT happens and his concern is ramped to eleven.
]

That seems like a really bad thing. What...in control of what?
droptheious: (Make a beautiful line)

[personal profile] droptheious 2022-01-02 10:40 pm (UTC)(link)
That's... hmm. This seems off? Like...why is he suddenly so keen to help you? Nothing you've told me about him would suggest he'd ever want to do that? Pretty much the opposite, in fact.

[It feels very suspicious, even more as Zim starts speaking to nudge him along. ]

Like...I don't know. Something doesn't sit right.
droptheious: (Steel and circuits will make me whole)

[personal profile] droptheious 2022-01-03 09:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[Varian couldn't, not for a second, blame him for charging into this as sketchy as it was. After all, isn't that what he did with the rocks? Just dove in knowing it was stupid and dangerous because he thought this time it would make his dad proud of him? He can Zib could write a damn book on the subject.

Zib says he doesn't want to live through the memory again and that's just heartbreaking, because Varian's experiences have taught him these are inevitable. They follow how the memory went and that's that. You can't change the past unless you're actually time travelling. He opens his mouth to tell him that when Zim starts speaking.

He turns to watch, his stomach dropping. This is bad. This is so bad. And lo it does. Even knowing the memory probably can't change- and the past certainly can't be changed- he can't help but surge forward to try and catch his friend- to save him from dropping.
]

Hey, WAIT!
droptheious: (A fucking winner now)

[personal profile] droptheious 2022-01-05 12:13 am (UTC)(link)
[What in the great googly fuck is HAPPENING? Varian stares at all of this, eyes wide, looking between the alien and the people who just seem to be...accepting all of this as something normal. Not even Corona was this sheeplike and he ran it with the king and queen like puppets for months! Even then he had a resistance against him. This is insanity.

So, naturally, he's just going to wave his arms, trying to get their attention, trying to do something to help his friend.
]

HEY! NO?! Are you guys not seeing this? He's obviously</i. being controlled!
droptheious: (What's it feel like?)

[personal profile] droptheious 2022-01-07 09:48 pm (UTC)(link)
[He can well and truly see the madness now and oh boy does he hate it. This is even more frustrating than trying to get anything across to Coronains, and that's really saying something. ]

Are you people kidding me right now?!!!

[He dreads to think what the alien is going to do, and so he's trying to find a way to get down to the stage, to stop Zim before he can do something, anything that can hurt his friend. ]
droptheious: (How it's done 'cause I know how it's don)

[personal profile] droptheious 2022-01-09 10:08 pm (UTC)(link)
[Varian has been increasingly worried about all of this and has been moving as fast as his legs will take him. Which...isn't fast in all honestly. But move he does. He grimaces as Zib falls flat on his face- moving to try and help him up...

And then everything changes. For a horrible, fleeting second, Varian wonders if they've slipped into his memories, and panic slips into his expression. But then he realises, as he looks around, this isn't his cell. It's not the castle dungeons. This is still Zib's memories.

He exhales, slow and shaky, before turning his attention to his friend on the ground. He offers a hand, you know, if he wants to get up. If he wants to stay on the ground hating his existence, that's cool too.
]

I see what you mean now by how stupid people are in your world. I think you might be the only sane person on your entire planet.
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[personal profile] droptheious 2022-01-10 10:08 pm (UTC)(link)
[Varian lets Zib just let it all out. He knows as much as anyone that sometimes, you just need to wallow in self-pity before building yourself back up again. He doesn't want to interrupt his friend's wallowing time. Once there's a break in it, he opens his mouth to tell Zib it's not his fault he was tricked, that he was doing what he could and other people are the idiots here.

...Oh it's Gaz. He remembers Zib talking about her.
]

...Your sister?

[He helps Zib up, looking at the purple-haired girl.]

She uh...looks like she means business.

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