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deercountry2022-02-08 01:08 am
imaglyphwitch) wrote in deercountry2022-02-08 01:08 am
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Mother stands for comfort
Who: Luz and you (and specifically with Luca)
What: Luz tries to resist the hex, and not mutate herself until she finally falls to beast hood
When: Middle of February (sorry Luz, no birthday for you)
Where: All around Trench
She'd read the sermon and was sure that was when the trouble began. Luz had thought, after getting others who'd been sympathetic and lent an ear to her troubles, that she might be able to ride out the crazy of this month, that she'd get to her birthday in relative peace. Unfortunately, things didn't get better: instead, Luz found herself plagues by the past: her father leaving, the scorn of being that "weird" kid in her class, and the things that came with her Deerington and new Trench memories.
After Varian, Luz had been meticulous about trying to keep such thoughts from consuming her, trying to talk to others when she could, listening to advice and meditating more than she probably had any month. But the thoughts kept coming, and no matter what Luz did, she found she was feeling more depressed by the day, even though she interacted with people and did her best to keep her smile up.
And then one day, she found it was starting to feel worse than usual, enough that she even resorted to turning to her bird form if only to escape those memories. Now they were starting to compound, and images of the cave men and the Blood Cultists and their attacks on her began to plague her nightmares. It got so bad that she woke up feeling the cuts in her skin as clearly as she had back then, and she would be breathing hard and be so anxious she stayed in bed.
She had no idea how to stop this, and moments where she started to consider self-harm surfaced, shocking her so badly she took a cold bath, shivering and in tears, wondering what would happen next.
What: Luz tries to resist the hex, and not mutate herself until she finally falls to beast hood
When: Middle of February (sorry Luz, no birthday for you)
Where: All around Trench
She'd read the sermon and was sure that was when the trouble began. Luz had thought, after getting others who'd been sympathetic and lent an ear to her troubles, that she might be able to ride out the crazy of this month, that she'd get to her birthday in relative peace. Unfortunately, things didn't get better: instead, Luz found herself plagues by the past: her father leaving, the scorn of being that "weird" kid in her class, and the things that came with her Deerington and new Trench memories.
After Varian, Luz had been meticulous about trying to keep such thoughts from consuming her, trying to talk to others when she could, listening to advice and meditating more than she probably had any month. But the thoughts kept coming, and no matter what Luz did, she found she was feeling more depressed by the day, even though she interacted with people and did her best to keep her smile up.
And then one day, she found it was starting to feel worse than usual, enough that she even resorted to turning to her bird form if only to escape those memories. Now they were starting to compound, and images of the cave men and the Blood Cultists and their attacks on her began to plague her nightmares. It got so bad that she woke up feeling the cuts in her skin as clearly as she had back then, and she would be breathing hard and be so anxious she stayed in bed.
She had no idea how to stop this, and moments where she started to consider self-harm surfaced, shocking her so badly she took a cold bath, shivering and in tears, wondering what would happen next.
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"Yeah, yeah, I mean there's not one...like, right now. In the city, in our immediate vicinity."
He brightens, pointing.
"But there IS a Lamp Friend over there, c'mon, if we get to it we can get right to the front lawn."
He starts trying to herd the kids towards it, still looking for trouble or anyone who wants to cause any- he's definitely not about to let anything harm them. He hums in response to Luz's question.
"Sure does, like Luca said it creates...different reactions. Aridane got wings again," which were so beautiful, and so important to her. "I've been studying those ones- to see if I could make some sort of chemical compound which replicated it, so she still had access to it after the month has gone."
He hesitates, he doesn't want to lie to Luca and say that didn't happen. Chances are it really did nudge him forward.
"It's...corruption is complicated, guys. I think it's something we all need to watch out for. It's easier to happen than...than even I first thought. But what matters now is that you're both back."
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"It would be nice if there WAS one though."
Ooh, lamp friend though. Luz did love those little guys. Granted, Luz is not moving as fast as she normally would, having been a monster moments ago thirsting for blood. She did manage to hear what Varian said, and smiles weakly.
"That sounds nice Varian. If anyone can come up with a compound to bring her wings back, its you. I sorta wish I knew her myself, but we miss each other other than when she comes over."
She coughs a little, starting to feel the chill in her bones, then looks over at Luca, making sure to keep her eyes averted.
"Luca, don't apologize. It probably didn't help, but I was lucky enough to avoid corruption twice already. It was bound to get me eventually. All of the things I was feeling, they just came up all at once."
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"Wow. I had some that gave me animal features, but no wings."
Yeah, he'd tried a lot of chocolate. Maybe he shouldn't have, but before he'd even known about the effects it could have he'd downed a bunch, including some that induced amnesia, which made him forget that what he was experiencing was unusual until it all wore off.
"From what I've heard, since I'm a vileblood it might be even easier for me to get corrupted."
At least, that's what he's heard around town. That vilebloods are doomed to corruption. As for Luz saying he shouldn't apologize...
"Yeah, I guess so. I mean, I've been feeling a lot of things lately, too, with all the stuff that happens here, but...I just wish my bond with you would have made things better for you, not worse."
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He doesn't know if he can do it, but hey the more chocolate he gets, the more he can try and see what he can replicate. He frowns at Luca's vileblood comment. Because that's...very true. He knows Luz's paleblood helps ease that, but if she's breaking down, it makes sense it would escalate things for him.
"Well. It's something to learn about the bonds, I guess," good lord, he's glad he didn't create a family bond with Luca now- that was the right call. "I guess we have to find better ways of handling it, okay? Like...talking about it when things get rough?"