March Catchall

[snakesdonthavelegs]

Who: Jessica and others!
What: Open and Closed Prompts, including for the event
When: Throughout March
Where: Throughout Trench

Content Warnings: Will be added by thread

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[onekindsoul]

[Jessica didn't seem to be taking the news any better than Ange, and honestly Ruby hadn't expected anything different. Both of their lives had been completely upheaved by this revelation.

She steps into the room and moves closer to the bed, taking a seat down on it.]

I wish I had a good answer for you there.

I've... I can't say I've been in the exact same boat before but I've had my life turned upside down by people I thought were my friends before.

It's awful and no one expects you to be okay after it.

Just take things a day at time for now.

cw: attempted infanticide

[snakesdonthavelegs]

[ Jessica nods to acknowledge Ruby, and closes her eyes, resting her head in her hands. Just when it seemed like she was starting to get used to life in this world, everything got thrown into chaos again. ]

It's just... it's all so messed up. My mother she... she tried to kill her when she was a baby. Before I was even born. And my dad has been covering up grandpa's death for the past two years. Grandpa... [ She shudders at remembering Sayo's words about him, not wanting to even vocalize that part. ]

...I loved her, you know? Like, I really loved her. I didn't understand then, but... I'd have run away with her, if she was suffering that much, but she never said anything to me. I... I really tried, you know? Even if I looked away from how bad she had it... Did she really hate all of us that much?

cw: attempted infanticide

[onekindsoul]

[Ruby listens to all of that and honestly she has no idea where to even start unpacking all of this. She had heard little bits of what Ange had figured out from her own time but it sounds like her family was more complicated than even she had known.

But there are parts about what she says that Ruby does understand. She's grown up with a broken and recovering family. She still remembers the way Raven looked at her when saying that Ruby reminded her of her own mother.]

I wouldn't know where to even begin with that. Honestly.

She pulled the wool over our eyes for months and... All I can really ask is why? Was she trying to get close to Ange to hurt her? To make up for what happened?

...The message she left with us when she left was filled with such vitriol.

I kind of wonder if she even knows why or what exactly she's doing.

[snakesdonthavelegs]

[ That confession had been so strange and awful, and yet it feels like every word of it is burned into her mind for all time. She feels compelled to grasp them, even though doing so threatens to cut her to pieces. Is it atonement? Or an attempt to search for what is left for her among her wreckage? ]

I... I really don't know. When she confessed to me, she was desperate for me to understand, so that I couldn't deny it or... look away, the way I always did.

[ What is she failing to see, even now? That thinking threatens to lead her down roads of fevered paranoia. ]

Everything she said was filled with such bitterness, but I think she hates herself the most of all. No, I... I know she does. She started ranting in this... weird voice, about all these awful things. [ There was no mistaking all of the bitter self-disparagement that kept leaving her mouth, undoubtedly inflamed by years of misery. Years when Jessica had looked the other way. ] She called it an unforgivable sin. She called herself... a horrid freak of nature.

[ She swallows hard, strangely guilty at sharing those words, no matter what Sayo had done to her. ]

I think that... she was so miserable and bitter that she wanted to take all of us with her. Even the ones who loved her.