Moderation isn't in my vocabulary

[violetlies]

Who: Kokichi Oma + OPEN! Closed starters available by request.
What: Catch-all log for April! Includes TDM and Event prompts.
When: Throughout the month of April
Where: Depends on prompt

Content Warnings: All warnings for the TDM prompt will apply. Specific instances will be warned for depending on prompt, but there will be a big focus on disassociative/unreality-based themes.

Wild card prompts are available by request via plotting on Discord, messaging at osomatsuniisan, or PM. ♥

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[violetlies]

[The Jessica in the portal gives Jessica's mother a charm. It's a nice interaction. It's...melancholy, but it clearly is the interaction of a mother and a daughter that love each other dearly. If his heart wasn't aching, he might've felt envious. But from the atmosphere, this interaction didn't turn out well.

And it's then when the portal winks out of existence, aNd Kokichi's arm shoots out, as if to try to grab it and force it back open, but there's nothing to grab. There's nothing there. Just open air.

And one crying young lady nearby. Kokichi isn't sure what to say for a good minute. He feels like he's intruding on a moment that shouldn't all be something he knows. And that's why he also slowly sinks down to his knees.]

I'm sorry, Jessica-chan.

[Are you going to keep looking? Because you can't let your classmates go? Yasuda-chan warned you. Now you're getting warned again. The person with which you agreed - I won't let go yet - he disappeared. What do you think that means, Master? Kidd's voice in his head was cutting, like Kokichi's voice had been during the killing game. Like when he was tearing down Himiko for not caring about Tenko until it was far too late. And now he was doing the exact same thing.

Because he was selfish. Because he wanted to hope that he could succeed. Because he wanted to be a hero, too.

That was it, wasn't it?
That was it. He was so sick of being the villain, and yet, that was all he was good at.

And that was when tears - warm, blobby tears - began forming at the corners of his eyes. This was a fool's errand.

He doesn't even recognize that a new portal has appeared where the last disappeared for a good minute, and when he sees it, he's too weak to say anything.

The room that is displayed this time is ornate, but there's something off about it. The environment is pixelated. Still, there's clearly two people there. Kokichi...and a boy in a black outfit.

"Oh, wait! Now that we're alone, I want to tell you something." Kokichi. The boy dressed in black spins around from looking at an elegant table.

"...What is it?"

Kokichi - the Kokichi in the portal - bolts forward suddenly, now in the other boy's personal space, his face flushed. "You're really useful."

"Huh?" The boy dressed in black looks befuddled.

"So, how about you stop hanging out with dumb ol' Kaito, and be *my* friend instead? I think I can be useful to you, too...y'know? I can help you save everyone. And you wanna save everyone, riiiiight?"]

So do you.

[The present-day Kokichi mumbles, tears dripping from his eyes.

Shuichi turns away.]

Please, Shuichi. You...you can't. I'm going to...if you go now, then...I'll do something terrible...

[But he can't change the past, then, can he? That's why his mumbling is as weak as it is.

And then Shuichi says-- "Shuichi Saihara." And in a flicker of light, he's gone. The Kokichi in the portal is standing there by himself.

"Nee-heehee...aw, I got rejected. But I won't give up that easily. When I find someone I like, I'd do anything to get them to notice me...even strangle them."

The portal slams shut, and it's like a final shot fired into Kokichi's body.]

...

[Jessica lost everything to a tragedy she could do nothing to prevent. Kokichi lost everything to the same, but he participated in it. He made it worse.

That's why one of them is loved, and the other is despised.

That's why there's always a villain in this story.]

[snakesdonthavelegs]

[ When the next portal appears, Jessica doesn't notice it at first either. She only registers the sound of him crying too. Like her, he's mourning what he lost, what could have been, what he cannot reach. She turns silently to look at him, eyes lonely but welling with sympathy.

It's only when those voices appear from the portal that she turns, to watch another far-off, untouchable scene. She doesn't understand what she's seeing, what the significance of this is for Kokichi. ]

Oma-kun...

[ There's something in the scene she's seeing, and in the broken words of the boy beside her, that gives her a sickening sense of deja vu. There's no direct evidence of what's wrong here, or what will happen on the other side of the portal. But it's wrong, it makes her skin crawl, and it's at least partially the fault of the boy beside her. ]

What did you...

[ Seeing him there, sobbing before the people he has lost forever unavoidably reminds her of Sayo, grieving and self-flagellating. Utterly miserable, impossible to completely hate, despite the depths of her betrayal. Hesitantly, she puts a hand on his shoulder. ]

There's nothing we can change now, Oma-kun...