It is. Hard. I still feel bad about it, though? Especially since, um. I don't think any Sleepers drowned because of me, but if they did... we come back. Most of the other citizens of Trench don't, and if any of them wound up out there because of me, I'd have no way of knowing?

[ He looks aside, stroking along the batcat's back. ]

I know I wasn't really myself, though, and that I can't go back and fix anything that happened. So I'm just trying not to, um. Obsess over it.