[Willow nods a little. She knows Faith probably understands better than anyone how being talked at - being told not to do something, even though it's all you really want in the moment - is enough to make anyone want to double down.]
That's... kind of what led to the almost destroying the world thing. I did a lot of damage. I don't ever want to end up in that kind of place again.
[Fueled by rage, and grief, and magic. She can remember how it felt - nothing mattered aside from killing Warren, no matter who she had to go through or hurt to do it. Then choosing to set her sights on the other Jonathan and Andrew as well, because they may not have pulled the trigger, but they were still complicit.
She leans back in her seat as Faith asks if it's the same as killing vampires, or if it changed her the way everyone would have expected it to, quiet and contemplative. She remembers telling Giles she just wanted to be Willow, and him assuring her that she still was, no matter how much she seemed to have changed.]
Killing Warren wasn't really like killing a vampire. Or even like killing Rack. He hurt a lot of people too.
[She's never felt guilt over dusting a vampire, nor does she carry much guilt for Rack. He may have been human at one time, before being twisted by dark magic, but she's not sure he was entirely by the end.]
But I wasn't exactly thinking straight either, and I think that changes things a little too? But yeah. It, uh, definitely had an effect on me.
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That's... kind of what led to the almost destroying the world thing. I did a lot of damage. I don't ever want to end up in that kind of place again.
[Fueled by rage, and grief, and magic. She can remember how it felt - nothing mattered aside from killing Warren, no matter who she had to go through or hurt to do it. Then choosing to set her sights on the other Jonathan and Andrew as well, because they may not have pulled the trigger, but they were still complicit.
She leans back in her seat as Faith asks if it's the same as killing vampires, or if it changed her the way everyone would have expected it to, quiet and contemplative. She remembers telling Giles she just wanted to be Willow, and him assuring her that she still was, no matter how much she seemed to have changed.]
Killing Warren wasn't really like killing a vampire. Or even like killing Rack. He hurt a lot of people too.
[She's never felt guilt over dusting a vampire, nor does she carry much guilt for Rack. He may have been human at one time, before being twisted by dark magic, but she's not sure he was entirely by the end.]
But I wasn't exactly thinking straight either, and I think that changes things a little too? But yeah. It, uh, definitely had an effect on me.