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(closed) february catchall
Who: Ange (
entreats), Chizuru (
tealeafs), Daniel (
miyagimagic) and various others.
What: February shenanigans.
When: During all of February.
Where: Locations vary.
Content Warnings: Nothing right now, specific warnings will be in headers when they come up.
( starters in the comments! if you want to plot anything with me, feel free to either pm the journal or contact me at
queeningsquare, i'm always open to new ideas and threads! )
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What: February shenanigans.
When: During all of February.
Where: Locations vary.
Content Warnings: Nothing right now, specific warnings will be in headers when they come up.
( starters in the comments! if you want to plot anything with me, feel free to either pm the journal or contact me at
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Those words - it feels like there's more to them. The kind of 'more' that doesn't take a genius to figure out, considering what Robby contacted her about only just this month. Robby finding out about what had happened to his father, and so much around him crumbling because of it. ]
It.. u-um.
[ It's hard to talk while crying. Chizuru mostly keeps resting against him, but she pulls her head back just enough for her to be able to wipe at her face with one of her hands, like she's trying to get rid of the tears so she can speak. ]
It must have hurt for you like this too, huh..? When you-- um, you know, with everything you found out early this month...
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But Robby doesn't say anything to Chizuru's observation immediately. Might give something away by the tug of his mouth, eyes looking at her. But he takes a silent breath and glances down, a more dissatisfied expression. ]
A lot of relationships end that way. [ It was a kiss. It was a lack of trust perceived. ] ...but yeah, it hurt. But, [ he adds after a beat, a lift to his voice, softly fond, ] someone gave me the best sleepover I've ever had and made me feel better.
[ He brushes the back of his fingers against her upper arm, a gentle gesture. ]
It could've been worse for me.
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Well..
[ Her hand rubs at her face for another moment, but then it drops. It leaves her face visible - and there's definitely still marks left behind by the crying. The girl's eyes are still kind of watery and red, the tears having left behind stains on her cheeks.
But even though she still doesn't seem fully over her upset and complicated feelings, she tries to smile a little bit at Robby all the same. ]
.. I got a friend looking out for me in return. [ She softly says.
That's why Robby came here, after all, right? Why would he have told her if he wasn't worried about her? If he didn't know her well enough to know that Chizuru's heart would be cast into disarray upon seeing all of this? ]
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Always. [ Robby is sure of that fact. He leans in himself this time, not fully pressing himself against her, but curling more in their space, head leaning on the back of the couch. His eyes still just managing to catch hers if he looks down, and she up. ]
Sorry I brought up a bummer to your first dating test. [ He half-hopes it's okay to semi-joke in this way. Something. That it's not too soon to ask after a small pause, ] Did you enjoy it?
[ Were there parts about it she at least liked? ]
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At least it does seem to calm the girl down a little. It doesn't erase the worries, sure, but it pushes them down a little. Just for now.
Just enough for her to breathe, and then nod, sincerely answering the question. ]
It was nice.. [ Even if it happened to hit this bump in the road right near the end - she can't deny this much. ] I'm.. still not sure if I really understand dating well.
[ But that's definitely a Her Problem, Chizuru knows. All of it is a little too foreign for her to understand so quickly. ]
But talking a lot, and doing fun things with someone.. that's nice.
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[ On some basic level. It's the feelings part that makes it different, the desired intimacy--if any--that comes along with it. But Robby doesn't feel the need to add that when he's already told Chizuru as much already. It's more of a reassurance, that there wasn't anything wrong with it.
At least, not that part. ]
First time I dated someone? Her name was Sarah, and I was in middle school. I asked her if she wanted to date in history class, and I was so nervous--she was my first kiss, and we used to hang out sometimes before class, but never lunch. You used to do that with your guy friends, and she'd sit with her girls.
We hung out after school sometimes. It's embarrassing, thinking about it now. [ There's a laugh in his voice, remembering; tickled by old, vague memories. ] We didn't do a lot, but one day I went to sit with her in history class, and her friend was already sitting there, and she told me she wasn't actually that into me.
Being honest? It wasn't that exciting for me either, but I was crushed for weeks. I had to sit in that class with her every week.
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But she's doing her best to keep up. She figures that Robby is telling her this story for her benefit, after all, because.. well, it's just what Robby is like. He's always trying to think of ways to make her feel better.
Even if she's not so sure what about this is supposed to make her feel better. Maybe it's just supposed to make it feel more relatable? That this stuff often happens when you date..?
It leaves Chizuru quiet and a touch puzzled for a moment, but then she slowly speaks up again. ]
Why did you feel crushed though if you didn't find it exciting..?
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Pride. [ Yeah, that was probably it, huh. ] I felt like I should've done something more, or that I didn't really get this dating stuff. Maybe I missed my chance 'cause I should've taken her out more. [ A little Robby being a proper lady killer. ...girl killer.
But his voice is light, not serious. He chuckles, barely a sound. ]
The thing is, a lot of us are clueless about dating. But I bet you did a lot better than me on your first date.
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[ The answer is a little flustered, but nothing that seems to make Chizuru too sad. Maybe it's since Robby speaks about it so nonchalantly too, and Chizuru doesn't want to be the one dragging this down when Robby is trying so hard to pull it up.
It might be why there's a very thin smile on her lips when she raises her head again after shyly ducking it, actually looking back over at Robby. ]
But the rest of it.. I think I get that.
[ Even though it's kind of weird to imagine someone else feeling the same way she does. Chizuru is so hard on herself that it feels baffling that someone else could be even remotely hard on themselves too..
Especially in such a similar way. ]
Even now, I'm not really sure if I understood the dating thing well.. And whether I should've done more, or less, or.. [ ...
Chizuru's voice trails off, and the girl shakes her head. ]
I just hope I have made her happy. [ Despite this last hurdle. Sure, it would maybe be easier to just.. ignore this, and let their dating period end peacefully.. But something about that doesn't feel right. Not for Chizuru's sake, but-- even more so, not for Jinx's sake either. ] Just that would be enough.
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But what's just as typically Chizuru is that last remark--I just hope I have made her happy. That that would be what's on her mind than anything else, like a crippling disappointment. Has he thought that about Tory? No, he knows he hasn't; because in the space where such thoughts would be is an emptiness where that end exists. A relationship that just ended, and he isn't sure yet how--or if--the pieces will ever fit back together.
He's always been more selfish--more selfish than someone like Chizuru, who's selfless to a fault.
Robby rubs his hand against her arm as a reassurance, tipping his head to slightly rest above hers. Looking off, and saying softly, ] You were good, Chizuru. You tried your best--none of this changes that.
[ And that means something, even if it doesn't seem like it. ]
People don't always work out.
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For a moment the girl's lips are tightly pressed together in thought. Thinking too much about this topic, and what she'll have to talk to Jinx about, threatens to tie her brain into pretzels, but.. ]
.. it's not over yet.
[ Her voice is soft as she says it. ]
There's still a few days left until the end of the month, right..? And Jinx, she's-- [ She breathes. ] She's listened to me before when it comes to topics like these. Maybe she'll understand. And if it'll end after these two months..
[ Which is what they had promised, right? Two months, and then at least a break to think about it all, at the very least. ]
.. then I want to try and end it happily.
[ With understanding about this one thing.
With maybe some more fun activities after the talk until the month is over. ]
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He might very well soon find out. ]
Sure. [ So he won't say anything more than an acknowledgement, an understanding. The rest was up to Chizuru now, and Jinx. Robby just had to be there and support whatever decision was made, the aftermath. For now, he rubs at her arm idly, quiet for a moment. ]
...Do you want me to stay longer, or do you need some time? I can hang about. [ A reassurance, because he knows what Chizuru will be concerned about even if she did want him to stick around.
But if she doesn't, that's alright too. ]
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.. on the other hand, she also knows she should probably prepare herself for this. Think about what to say to Jinx specifically, and how to say it. Despite the fact that she's trying to be optimistic here, it doesn't feel easy to have a talk like this - especially when Chizuru doesn't want to hurt Jinx either.
So she slowly shakes her head. ]
Thank you. [ It's not like she's going to waste an opportunity to thank him for his kindness, at least. ] But.. I should probably prepare myself. Um.. you know, for the talk.
[ She gives Robby a tiny smile. There's something awkward - no, nervous - around its edges. ]
But I can talk to you afterwards..?
[ Oh, Chizuru, honey.
You have no clue what's awaiting you. ]
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But it's said with fondness, and Robby pulls back from his place on the sofa; giving Chizuru one last squeeze with the arm around her, and then standing up onto his feet. It's been an emotional ride, one that isn't over yet, and one he wishes he could do more for her than be a voice at the end of it.
Robby will be ready though, taking his omni back from her and walking out to the front door. He's got his coat and gloves to put on, and Chizuru usually does follow; and if she does this time, he'll turn around after exiting the door, one last tug of a smile to give her. ]
Good luck.