October 2021 Event Overflow

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OCTOBER 2021 EVENT OVERFLOW

OVERFLOW POST for the OCTOBER 2021 EVENT

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Mako

[royalfling]

[ Wu nods slowly, those words cutting too close to the truth, to the fears he has. At least he feels safe, nestled against Mako's chest, with Mako's arms around him. Safe, physically, even if he's still afraid. Afraid of what Mako might say, afraid that Mako might not want to him.

But Mako says he understands. He says it, and Wu needs to let Mako decide for himself. He wouldn't want to force him into anything, again, wouldn't want to lie to him, even if it means Mako won't love him anymore.

He would rather Mako love him for him than love him for a fantasy of himself. He takes a shaky breath ]

That's-- yes. I don't, I don't know why you would, would like me when I'm not... [ He presses closer, fingers curling in Mako's shirt ] I guess, happy, excited Wu is... easier. For people to deal with. So I'm not making them deal with my, ah... negative emotions.

[arclightning]

You really can't guess why I might like you even when you're a mess?

[ The words are gentle, with just a slight teasing edge. Mako pulls back just enough to look down at him, quirking a brow. ]

Can't think of a single reason?

[royalfling]

[ Wu opens his mouth to respond, then closes it, meeting his eyes. The intensity of his feelings for Mako wrack through him again, traveling through where they're touching.

Then he laughs, soft and easy ]

Maybe I can think of one.

[arclightning]

[ Mako's breath catches as all of that rolls through him, washing along the lines of his ribs like the tide. Wu—

Wu really loves him.

Wu loves him so much that it's kind of hard to wrap his head around, kind of hard to... even think about. What has Mako done to earn that? What made Wu feel this way? Mako hasn't even been that great of a boyfriend, but apparently.

Well. That's what he's saying, isn't it?

He pushes another kiss to Wu's forehead. ]

I love you. Not excited-you, not... happy-you. Just. You. Got that?

[royalfling]

[ Wu laughs quietly, a lightness blossoming in his chest. The corpse, finally, at last, dissipates entirely, and Wu throws his arms around Mako, holding him tight and close and there's part of him that still doesn't believe Mako, but that's the same part that doesn't believe any nice thing about him and he's learning to quiet that voice.

The thing is, he wants to believe Mako. He wants Mako to love him like he says he does. He wants that so much that it kind of hurts, but believing that it's true hurts, too, because he's never had that. He's never had that kind of love that didn't expect anything from him, and Mako doesn't. Mako just... loves him. For better or worse ]

I love you so much. [ The words are pressed into the side of Mako's head, Wu's cheeks wet again, but he's smiling and happy and he pulls back enough to kiss him hard ]

[arclightning]

Love you too.

[ As easy as that, because in the end, it is easy: loving Wu is the easiest thing Mako does most days. Maybe it'll get harder after this. Maybe Wu will let his guard down, maybe he'll be a little less cheerful, but Mako likes him better like that. He likes those rough edges. Somehow, they're less grating than the mask Wu likes to wear.

Probably, he thinks as he tugs Wu closer, because he's really stupidly in love. ]