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deercountry2022-04-10 07:08 pm
zib) wrote in deercountry2022-04-10 07:08 pm
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you're never coming back
Who: Zib and maybe even you! This is an OPEN log for everyone who wants to get involved /o/
What: Mostly studying butterflies and skeletons, and then beast hood shenanigans thanks to the portals from the event
When: During the month of April
Where: Tends to hang out around Disaster House, but the prompt with beast corruption will be throughout Trench, see inside for further details
Content Warnings: despair/potential suicidal ideation because of the butterflies, skeletons(???), paranoia/hallucinations, obsession, insect/alien body horror per beast hood corruption, parental neglect, will add more if they come up
[So Zib has been... well, not well. He's been showing some signs of undergoing the corruption that others have here and there in the form of the extra green arms he's been walking around with lately, and with some strange lines that have formed against his face, arms, anywhere that he allows any skin to expose that take the shape of something reminiscent of spider-web cracks.
Like as if his body is merely a cocoon and something is bursting at the seams waiting for the right type to hatch.
But, thankfully, Zib had started out being at least semi-aware that he was very much stretching the definition of being "okay" in any way, shape, or form. He's told a few people about it rather than hiding it, at least, and has tried to find things that he actually enjoys to see if it helps any or at least serves as a nice enough distraction for now.
However... it seems that April has other ideas.]
[ooc: Toplevels with what's happening with Zib will be below with their own headers! They're all mostly related to the event, but if you want a closed thread with Zib that falls outside of the prompts offered, hit me up and I'll make it happen! I've also got Zib's plotting stuff for the event over here that you're free to go to for info or hit me up on as well!]
What: Mostly studying butterflies and skeletons, and then beast hood shenanigans thanks to the portals from the event
When: During the month of April
Where: Tends to hang out around Disaster House, but the prompt with beast corruption will be throughout Trench, see inside for further details
Content Warnings: despair/potential suicidal ideation because of the butterflies, skeletons(???), paranoia/hallucinations, obsession, insect/alien body horror per beast hood corruption, parental neglect, will add more if they come up
[So Zib has been... well, not well. He's been showing some signs of undergoing the corruption that others have here and there in the form of the extra green arms he's been walking around with lately, and with some strange lines that have formed against his face, arms, anywhere that he allows any skin to expose that take the shape of something reminiscent of spider-web cracks.
Like as if his body is merely a cocoon and something is bursting at the seams waiting for the right type to hatch.
But, thankfully, Zib had started out being at least semi-aware that he was very much stretching the definition of being "okay" in any way, shape, or form. He's told a few people about it rather than hiding it, at least, and has tried to find things that he actually enjoys to see if it helps any or at least serves as a nice enough distraction for now.
However... it seems that April has other ideas.]
[ooc: Toplevels with what's happening with Zib will be below with their own headers! They're all mostly related to the event, but if you want a closed thread with Zib that falls outside of the prompts offered, hit me up and I'll make it happen! I've also got Zib's plotting stuff for the event over here that you're free to go to for info or hit me up on as well!]
no subject
[It's taken years for him to be okay with talking about this, and it's still hard to... but he's got support here, and he wants to help Zib out. Chances are it will help him, too.]
He... tried to be nice to me, but I mostly just wanted to fight him. Aaand kill him. It wasn't great.
cw: suicidal implication
[But, there's a creeping sense of anger coming back into his tone as he looks down at the ground, his multiple hands curling into tight fists.]
The other me... he ruined so much when he showed up. After all of the hard work I had done to defeat my Zim, the suffering I endured to survive my entire timeline being destroyed in the process, and even then, still putting my all into saving all the other timelines that still had an Earth to protect while I was trapped in a void with multiple copies of my worst enemy... just for him to show up with his stupid Zim and tear what little I had left away from me!
They turned all of those Zims against me, destroyed my tech, and then made it so that I was stranded in that void, alone this time so that I couldn't even have the other Zims to at least take my frustrations out on! Left to just... starve to death, probably. Or... or maybe even something worse, if it meant escaping that fate.
[In other words, it's a really good thing that this place scooped Zib up right when it did before that could happen.]
cw: suicidal implication, child death
Dude, you're so much better off here than back home. I'm not even gonna try and beat around the bush - your home sucks and even though this place sucks sometimes, it's still better. You got people here who care about you, and no Zims.
[He runs a hand through his hair.]
It's the same for me. I kinda... die. Back home. And you're as good as dead. So... you're not alone, there.
cw: suicidal implication, child death
[or maybe even better than being at home, because at least here people listen to him]
But... I... I can't stand the idea of how the ones who ruined my life get to just... just move on as if nothing happened!
[He stomps a foot down, hard, as if hoping that might be enough to make this stupid portal on the ground he had been trying to get into finally break open. It doesn't, of course.]
He gets to have his stupid Zim, his Earth, his family... if I can't have those things, then he shouldn't be allowed to have them either...